Page 26 of Sharing Shadow Secrets
“Let me know when you find someone with good vibes.”
I release my hand from his, needing to cover my mouth with both hands. No guy has ever seriously talked to me about a threesome before, especially not on a first date.
I guess I’ve historically attracted vanilla guys, then.
“I was not prepared for this conversation,” I say after collecting myself.
“You sure about that?” he asks, confident, tilting his head. “You knew what was in that book and you told me to read it.”
“Would you rather I lied about what book I was reading?”
“You could have protested a little more if you didn’t want me to read it.”
“Wait!” I say, nearly shrill. “Are you saying that the threesome is my idea?”
He nods.
“No! It’s your idea.”
“It’s not my idea to share you.”
I take a sip of my water, combusting from this conversation. “I think we’re getting ahead of ourselves here. We need to at least kiss first.”
Brandon bites his lip, maybe enjoying how frazzled I am. Being God’s favorite. That would be the dream. A dream I didn’t have until reading about it. One where two men worship me. Two mouths, four hands, and two dicks. I take another sip of my water. We are skipping ahead here.
16
Taylor Williams. Of course I want to sleep with her. But I need to turn down the sexual stuff. That’s my default: straight into bed. Taylor has the potential to be so much more than someone I’m hooking up with. I need to slow this down.
After paying for dinner, I ask, “Can I walk you back?”
“Both of my roommates are home,” she says slowly while searching my eyes.
“Okay?” I ask, not understanding, but after the word comes out of my mouth, I get it. She doesn’t want to hook up at her place because her roommates are home. “Oh … I’m trying really hard to not fuck on the first date anymore.”
“We should be respectable people,” she says with a light laugh.
I nod, pushing my chair back to stand. “I can call you an Uber if you don’t want me to walk you back.”
“You’re not getting out of kissing me,” she says, standing and reaching for my hand.
Interlacing our fingers, I really enjoyed this date. “I promise I’ll kiss you,” I say softly, leaning down to kiss the top of her head.
We exit the restaurant, and I notice the orange and pinks coloring the sky. Long daylight hours is one of my favorite things about summer. Plus, it’s still above seventy degrees out. Walking back to her place, we step in comfortable silence. “Can I cook for you soon?” I ask as we near her place.
“You’re not leaving the country next week, are you?” she asks, looking up at me as we walk.
“No.”
“How about on Monday?”
“You got it. I live in River North. So, want to come over whenever you’re done with work?”
“Sounds good.” She smiles, and I’m falling. I can’t wait to see her again.
As we approach her door, she stops walking, tilting her chin up. Her lips part. I squeeze her hips, staring down into her beautiful eyes. “I had a great night with you,” I say, moving one hand to her ass. “This dress is very fucking sexy.” I lean down and squeeze her cheek as I brush my lips into hers. Her arms wrap around my neck, pulling me closer. Our kiss deepens, and her tongue swipes mine. I want to give in. To call a car and fuck her all night, but taking it slow is what I should do. I need to separate the sex from the attraction. “Goodnight, Taylor.”
She pouts. “Come up. I don’t want to be done hanging out just yet.”
