Page 35 of Final Goodbye
That whole playing pretend thing? That ended before it ever began. At least for me it did.?
We sat there, her still straddling me, when we both came up for air, feeling the aftereffects of our orgasms. I slid her shirt and bra back up, giving her shoulder a light kiss.?
“So much for talking about our days then, huh?” she said with a smile across her face.
“I needed to get my mind off of today and you succeeded with helping me do that. This was exactly what I needed, nothing else matters now,” I answered back and took another moment to memorize how she looked after she let go. Hair slightly out of place from my hands running through it, and red marks on her chest and neck from my five o’clock shadow I put off shaving the last couple of days.
She was fucking beautiful. I didn’t want anyone else to have the opportunity to see her in this light. She was mine to look at when she was disarrayed after we fooled around. She was minewhen she was put together and ready for work. She was mine in every fashion.
She will be mine.
I will make her mine.
I shook the thoughts from my head, not wanting to get ahead of myself. Pulling her in for a kiss, I added, “We should probably get cleaned up, don’t you think?”
She broke out in a hysterical laugh.
“Yeah, I guess we should. I’m not sure when the last time I dry humped to completion was.” The way she said that made me smile. Mostly because it had been my cock to bring her to the brink, but also because we just dry humped and nothing was even awkward between us. It was like we had done this a hundred times before, when in reality, it was our first kiss that led to more.
Our chemistry was fucking insane.
“Trust me, I was thinking the same thing,” I replied with a hoarse laugh.
“Guest bathroom is down the hall to the right. You can use that one. I’m going to head to my room and get out of these sweats really quick.” I winked.
She lifted her leg to let me up, and I made a personal reminder to bring these sweatpants back out again since she seemed to love them so much.
A week had goneby since Declan and I dry humped each other in his living room. Every day last week, I was consumed by the thought of him coming undone. The memory of Declan lived rent free in my mind and probably would for days to come. When that switch flipped, it was like he turned into a completely different person.
And the dirty mouth on that man?I never would have guessed some of the things he said to me while we were intimate would come out of his mouth.
It had been a while since I’ve been in a relationship, but out of all the flings I had in Phoenix, I could never find someone to match my sexual energy. It always made it easier to end things because I was never fully feeling it.?
Declan and I hadn’t even had sex yet, but somehow, I knew it would be fireworks. The sexual chemistry between us was obvious.?
Since we had only been intimate behind closed doors, it didn’t come as a surprise to me that when I ran into Declan at the bar and we had no one to fake it for, there was a tiny bit ofawkwardness. He flirted with me like he always did, greeted me with a hug and a kiss on the forehead, but nothing as intense as the other night.
Maybe he was still stuck on only being physical when Logan was around or when we were alone. Maybe he didn’t want to cross a line in front of other people.Or maybe I was getting in my head and overthinking everything.I needed to chill the fuck out and go with the flow, even though deep down, I hoped for another moment like that spent with Declan.?
I tried to shake the thought of Declan from my mind as I realized it was only a few weeks out from Thanksgiving and the weather was taking a turn for winter. I woke up to the first snow this morning, noticing the trees were coated in white powder and the roads were freshly plowed, making it an easy drive to work. The snow always made it brighter outside when the sun reflected off the white surfaces. It had been a while since I’d seen a snowy day, but this view made me realize I missed the mountains more than I thought.
I was on my way to work as my mind bounced around from one thought to the other. One minute, distracted by the thought of the insanely attractive man I was pretending to date and crushing hard on, and the next, I was looking at the blankets of snow around me trying to figure out how I was going to continue to drive around in the mountains this winter.
The more I thought about it, the more I considered this rental car wasn’t going to hold up in the harshness of a Colorado winter. I had the day off tomorrow, so maybe I’d go take a look at a more suitable vehicle.?Who knows, maybe I could convince a certain man I couldn’t get off my mind to help me with the daunting task of buying a new car? I’d been working my ass off with all the extra shifts Sophie had given me since I started, and I wanted to believe I had a pretty penny saved up for a decent down payment on a used car. It was a huge help that I didn'thave to pay rent this month, thanks to my mom letting me crash at her place while I decided what was next for me.
I’d figure out the rest of the details later. All I knew was that I needed a new car, and I wanted Declan’s help with buying it.
I continued to drive down the final stretch toward High Street wherePeakswas located. The view this time of year was stunning downtown. White lights twinkled in the trees and around light posts, red bows and garland hung around buildings and signs. It was like stepping into a winter wonderland, and even more so when there was fresh snow. The holidays were creeping up quickly and Alpine Peak was the perfect place to visit around the holidays if you wanted to feel like you were in a Hallmark movie.
Making my way inside of the bar, I immediately felt the warmth from the heater greet my skin. Sophie was behind the bar, laughing it up with her regulars. I was looking forward to working with her tonight. It was supposed to be a busy Saturday night, and the more we worked together and got to know each other, the more I enjoyed finally having a girl friend here to talk to about all things girls usually talked about. Which usually happened to be sex, periods and relationships.
It was the calm before the storm. The regular Saturday night customers were enjoying a nice dinner out on the town before a fun night of drinking and dancing to the live country band. Before it got too wild in here, it gave me and Sophie some time to catch up.
“How’s it going, girl? The regulars seem to love you!” she greeted me with a hug. “I’m not sure who is more excited that you work here…me, because I finally have time for a social life, or the customers who can’t shut up about how sweet you are.” Sophie giggled at her remark.
“The extra shifts and money have been great. I can’t complain.” I wanted to take this moment to open up to her andsay something I have yet to admit out loud. “I’m trying to get a new vehicle so I can return my rental. I’ve been able to save a lot, which is nice. Who knows, maybe I’ll get a place to rent next?” The omission made me blush, thinking about staying. Starting over again here in Alpine Peak was not a possibility I saw for myself when I originally left years ago.
“Oh, wow, look at you making all the big girl moves. New car, new job, and soon a new place to stay?! Who even are you?” Giving me a soft slap on the arm, she giggled in excitement.
