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“I am not cheating on you with Sawyer!” I moved my hands from my face, but only so I could furiously wipe at the tears running down my cheeks. “Why would you even think that?!”
“You’re always with him! All the time! Ever since school started you’re either with him or his stupid cousin. Which one are you fucking, Holly?Or is it both?”
“Do you seriously think that? Do you honestly think I am cheating on you, Carter? I would never!”
“You’re a slut, Holly.” Carter grinned. “A slut for everyone but me. You’re fucking everyone but your boyfriend.”
“Carter, that’s crazy. You know that’s crazy. I love you and I would never, ever cheat on you. Especially with Sawyer. You know I don’t like him, you know—"
“Did he tell you I was about to fuck Jennifer?” Carter suddenly spat out.
There was venom in his voice and a glint in his blue eyes. The blue eyes that normally brought me so much comfort. My bottom lip quivered a little. What did he just say to me?
“You got nothing to say now?” he asked with a chuckle. “Did he tell you? Huh? About how I was flirting with Jennifer and how I was seconds away from fucking her until he came along?”
I stepped back from him. “What are you talking about?”
“There was Mandy the other day. Camila last week. Sienna the week before that. Then there was Alexis, Courtney, Marissa, Natasha, Cassidy, Emma—"
My hands were on my ears, trying to block out the noise. “Stop, stop, stop—"
“Kylie, Amber, some whore cheerleader from the Devils who’s name I can’t remember, Bridget, Lacey, Heidi, Carmen—"
“Stop it.” Even with my hands shoved up against my ears, I could still hear the names. Names I knew. Names that were familiar.
“Savana, Nikki, another Marissa, Sasha—"
“Stop it.”
“And it was supposed to be Jennifer tonight, but your friend fucked it up.”
“Stop it!” My voice was shaky, my emotions completely and utterly out of my control as I opened up my wet eyes. Carter stood in front of me, a smirk on his face, looking oh so proud of what he just put me through. “Stop it. Please.” My hands lowered to my sides, my fingers trembling as my heart pounded in my chest. Had Sawyer been right?
“You know it’s your fault, right?” Carter laughed. “I never would have cheated if you had just given me what I wanted. If you just let me fuck you, you wouldn’t be crying right now.”
There was so much cruelty in his voice. So much malice. He was talking to me like he hated me.
“I don’t even know what to say to you right now,” I whispered, shaking my head at him.
“There’s only one person to blame, Holly. Don’t look at me like that. Don’t give me that face. All you had to do was give me what I wanted. I wasted a whole year on you,” he spat. “We’re fucking done.”
I watched him as he pulled the door open and disappeared back inside. My heart sank. My hands still shook. Everything came to a standstill as my brain did its best to process the last twenty-minutes. Punch in the kitchen. Sawyer yelling. Carter yelling. Sawyer storming out. Me following. The reveal.
Me calling Sawyer a liar to his face while my own boyfriend was the one who had been lying to me the whole time.
It was a mess. And it surrounded me. Everywhere I looked I felt pain. My heart ached. No, my whole body hurt as the disaster began to truly sink in. Carter was meant to be it for me. He was meant to be the one. My knees almost buckled underneath me. The only reason I didn’t fall was because Annie came out with Lucas. They sent me sympathetic stares as they helped me into the car and drove me home. I was quiet. I didn’t even cry. There was nothing left to do except experience absolute heartbreak.
Chapter 26
SAWYER
The weekend flew by and dragged on at the same time. After that disastrous fucking party on Friday night, all I could think about was Holly. The look on her face, the tears in her eyes, the pain in her voice. She looked heartbroken.
I always said I would fuck with Holly with anything but that. The Carter Issue. That was supposed to be between the two of them. And I had also thought one day Carter would be a fucking man and admit to her what he was up to. But that day never seemed to come, and he had forced me to tell her the truth. I was the last person she wanted to hear that from.
“Dude, you gonna sit there staring out the window all day or what?”
“Huh?” I cleared my throat.
