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Thankfully, it’s big enough for us to lie on our sides with Liam still in my ass and Nate still in my pussy.
I want to stay like this, close with my lovers, their scents and warmth surrounding me.
“I love you both so fucking much,” Nate whispers, all choked up. “Thank you for loving me.”
“Thank you for making it so easy to love you,” I murmur, feeling sleep take over me.
“What she said,” Liam mutters, making Nate chuckle.
I fall asleep on my tour bus couch feeling whole, happy, and so madly in love.
Chapter 26
Ally
I’m used to change, to my life moving quickly. I’m always on the road or starting a new project, never staying still for very long. It’s something that’s never really bothered me. I liked it. It was fun. Kept me busy. And kept me out of my mind for the most part.
How can you think about being heartbroken and depressed when you're always on the go, right?
Sitting here, in my hotel room, snuggled up with my pack while we watch a movie, I look around at the people who’ve come into my life and changed it for the better.
It’s kind of ironic that some of the people who played a part in some of my worst pain have become the people who have healed me.
The world works in odd ways. They were always meant to be mine; it just wasn’t our time until now.
It was worth the wait, no matter how much it sucked to have gone through what I did. What matters is that I’m happy now. I’m loved. I haven’t gone to bed alone in weeks.
I’ve never felt so safe, wanted, and loved in my whole life.
Most people think I have it all. Money, fame, status. And while all of that is nice, I’d give it all up in a heartbeat if it came between my career and my pack.
Because what's the point of having everything in the world if you have no one to share it with?
Being a singer and living this kind of life has always been my dream. It’s one I’ll forever be grateful for coming true.
But the more time I spend with my pack, the more I find myself resenting my job. It’s messed up, I know. Still, when I’mup on stage, I’d much rather be back on the bus, cuddling with Lulu, sitting in Liam’s lap while we play games, walking around laughing with Brady, picking on Liam with Nate, or arguing who the better superhero is with Gavin.
Tyson, Ryker, and Skyler have been my rocks, my safe place for a long time. The only ones I could depend on not to hurt me. The ones I leaned on when I felt like everything was crumbling around me.
Life is changing, and while they will always be some of the most important people in my life, their roles have changed. Now, I have a pack to be my rock and safe place.
We’re in Phoenix for a show, and last night was amazing, but this? Sitting here and just enjoying one another's company has given me more dopamine lately than when I’m on stage.
Part of me feels guilty, like I’m doing a disservice to my fans. If it wasn’t for them, I wouldn’t be where I am today and wouldn’t have the life I live.
I’m doing what I always do and pushing forward. I’ll be okay. I always am.
Nate’s phone rings, pulling all of our attention away from the TV.
He pulls it out and sighs, getting to his feet. “Just gonna take this quickly.”
“That one is always working,” Lulu points out.
“Yeah.” I bury my face in her lap, making her laugh. “But it’s kind of our fault.”
I peek up at her, finding her chewing on her lip. “Maybe we should have kept things a secret a little longer. At least until after your tour.”
Frowning, I roll over so that my head is facing up in her lap. “Why?”
