Page 50 of Rhythm Of Our Souls
I don’t know how to process these feelings, and I hate it. I strive to be in control, and right now, I feel anything but.
This is something I’ve both dreamed of and dreaded for the longest time: finding my scent match, for the day to come when I’d finally be with the one person who was chosen for me. Then I met this feisty little Omega who was thrusted into my world and flipped it upside down, making me question all my decisions.
I kept myself away from her in fear of getting hurt, only to end up being scent matched to someone who would be the one to bring us together.
It terrifies me to know I can finally give in to my feelings for Ally. It feels like it’s too good to be true.
It’s something I’m going to have to talk to Lulu about. I need to make sure she’s truly okay with this. I need to hear the words from her mouth.
Until then, I don’t think I can even allow myself to entertain the idea. Not if it’s only going to lead me to getting my hopes up and my heart crushed.
The fact is, if Lulu isn’t okay with sharing me with Ally, I’ll give Ally up. But I don’t want to. I really don’t fucking want to.
“Liam!” Ally shouts, getting my attention. My eyes snap over to hers. “You’re off the clock.”
“What?” My brows furrow together.
“Grab your stuff, big boy. You're going with them.”
“What do you mean?”
She walks over to me, a soft smile on her pretty face. “A lot has happened today.”
“Yes.” I nod slowly.
“You found your scent match.” She raises a brow.
“I did,” I say slowly again. “And so did you.”
“That I did,” she laughs. “And it’s a pretty big deal.”
“I’d say so.” I cock my head to the side. “What games are you playing, Precious?”
She chews her lower lip. “No games. Not with this.”
“Then what are you talking about? What do you mean, I’m off the clock?” I’m never off the clock. I’ve never wanted to be. Other than the few times Skyler and I go home once a year to see our family, I’m always with Ally. Day and night. When we’re not touring, I’m staying at her house, sleeping in the room down the hall from her. When we’re on the bus, one of those bunk beds is mine.
When we stay at hotels, I sleep in the next room.
It’s pure fucking torture to be so close to her and know I couldn’t ever take things past that line again.
Still doesn’t keep me from thinking about it every night and day.
I don’t know how to be away from Ally, because I’ve never wanted to be.
“Things are confusing and complicated. We’re both feeling a bunch of new things. And I know one of them is the need to be near our scent matches,” Ally says, and my eyes flick over to Lulu, who’s standing next to Gavin and Brady. She’s watching us.
I lick my lips, looking back down to Ally. “Are you feeling the same way?”
“Yes,” she admits. “But I know Brady has to go with Gavin so they can do what they need to do before coming on tour with us. I’ll be okay... I think.” She laughs, and I frown. She’s putting on a brave face. She wants to be with Brady right now. How is it fair that I go with Lulu when she can’t go with Brady?
“You’re overthinking it,” she groans, grabbing my hand. She drags me over to Lulu and her Alphas. “Lulu, take your Alpha.” She grabs Lulu’s hands and places it in mine. “I know if he doesn’t go with you tonight, he’s going to drive me up the wall pacing the tour bus with the need to go to you.”
“Are you sure?” I ask Ally.
Ally narrows her eyes. “Listen here, buddy. This girl right here.” She points to Lulu. “She’s your Omega. You don’t need to ask me for permission when it comes to her. I have no say.”
I open my mouth, but she covers it with her hand. “Nope. Don’t want to hear it. Go, take my girl home. Get her ready, then bring her back to me tomorrow. That’s it. Go, have fun.” She wiggles her eyebrows.
