Page 36 of His to Possess
But all of that changed for me the second my father kicked us out of his house. And it’s been so long since I’ve been able to meet new people, or enjoy the simple company of a girlfriend. Michelle has been amazing to me since we met at the bar, but we both work so much there’s rarely room for girl time in our schedules.
“I hope Nate and I didn’t make you feel uncomfortable before,” Harper says brightly, and I give myself a little shake, not wanting to think about my shitty situation anymore. “It’s just so crazy.” When I give her a blank look she clarifies. “Seeing Philip with a girlfriend, I mean.”
“Oh.” For what feels like the hundredth time tonight, my cheeks flush. No wonder Philip thinks I’m an innocent little girl with the way I blush at the drop of a hat.
“I’m not Philip’s…we’re not really—”
Harper interrupts me by leaning forward. “He is totally into you,” she says, hardly bothering to lower her voice. “I’ve never seen him like this with anyone. Nate said the same thing.”
“He’s just looking out for me,” I insist, but even as I say it, his whispered words from a few moments ago barrel through my head.Seeing you like this makes me wonder what you look like when you come.
Harper is watching me with knowing eyes. “Uh huh. That’s all it is. Sure.”
I glance back toward the steel door, heart sinking a little. “I’m not all that sure I’m up to his speed,” I admit.
“Are you into this stuff?” she asks bluntly, then winces a little. “Sorry. My field of study is human sexuality. Sometimes I forget that not everyone is comfortable with random kink mentions.”
I grin at her, gesturing around. “I mean, we are in a sex club. Not much point in censoring yourself, right?”
She laughs. “Exactly.” But she does lower her voice when she leans closer. “It’s not for everyone. But if you think you might like it, I say give it a go. I’m much happier now than I was before.” She winks. “Less repressed.”
“My middle name is repressed,” I blurt out and she laughs.
“Honestly, though,” I press. “Don’t you think it’s a little silly for me to think I could keep up with a guy like Philip? I’m, uh, not very experienced.” Understatement of the year right there.
She gets a naughty glint in her eyes that appears slightly out of character for her sophisticated, buttoned up persona. “Well that’s half the fun of this lifestyle. All you have to do is relax and let the Dom take the reins. No experience necessary.”
I think about what it would feel like to let Philip take the reins and goosebumps pop up on my skin. There’s something very appealing about the idea of him in control.
Harper pats my leg, that same knowing smirk on her face. “That’s what I thought.”
I realize the guys are wrapping up their discussion. Benson is placing several large bills down on the table, presumably for a tip, and straightening his tie.
“Pleasure, as always, gentlemen,” he says.
“We look forward to doing many good deeds with you,” Philip says, and Benson laughs as he stands.
“Always knew you were an altruistic bastard in disguise.” He buttons his jacket. “Now if you’ll excuse me, I haven’t had my pet in restraints in far too long.” He nods vaguely at me and Harper then actually snaps his fingers at the still silent woman at his side. She stands, completely expressionless, and follows him to the steel door without saying a word.
“On second thought, I might not be so into it after all.”
Harper laughs so hard she has to bend at the waist. “That’s just how they play,” she says. “Kyra Benson is a corporate lawyer. A total bitch boss.”
“Really?”
Philip slides a little closer to me. “They’ve been married for ten years and have two kids,” he adds. “That man worships the ground she walks on.”
“Then why…”
He shrugs. “It’s like Harper said, that’s just how they play. Some people get off on that kind of thing.”
“On being treated like a doormat?” My voice drips with skepticism.
“Lots of people like some level of degradation,” Harper says. “It’s all about finding where your line is.”
“That’s the beauty of a place like this,” Philip says. “No judgment. So long as both parties follow the rules and respect consent, you’re free to explore whatever desire or fantasies you might have.”
Well, when he puts it like that…
