Page 53 of Thick as Thieves
Sorley is snoozing as usual. I prod Kell to take him, and he sits up, picking the sleeping boy off me.
“God, he’s so beautiful,” he says, swinging him gently up to rub his back.
Lochi rolls off me, milk drunk, and Xan smiles gently and takes the boy, kissing his head.
“He looks like James,” Xan says. “When he sleeps, I can see him in his face.” He smiles over at Kellen, love making him almost glow. “I can’t wait for you to come out with these two again. It was great before, but now it will be spectacular,” he says, placing the sleeping baby down and getting back into bed.
“I smell of milk. I need to shower.” I get up and move towards the shower, both of them watch me. They’re assessing if I’m moving away from them or if I really do need a shower. To be honest, it's a bit of both. It’s a lot—a lot of firsts, a lot of decisions going forwards.
I walk into the shower and get it ready, trying to slow my mind, the jumbled thoughts pouring as much as the shower water. Just as I’ve stepped in, they both come in, stark naked. My eyes widen at the glorious bodies on show. Abs to die for, skin so smooth like silk.
“We think you need help showering.” Kell’s grinning, his voice soft, the one I love, but playful. “The two of you were all I could think about last night. I need to be with you both, don’t leave yet, Kitten.”
Washcloth in hand, Xan cocks a hip at us and asks cheekily, “So my loves, who’s first?” He grins at us both as he twirls the cloth on his fingers.
23
Evie
I don’t really knowwhat is happening to my body. I feel light, happy, and completely satisfied. I’m mulling over the past twenty-four hours again. How much I’ve seen but not really looked at. All the not-so-hints Xander has given me over the past twelve months. I’m content in myself with them both, but can see lots of issues. The doubts start to swamp me like a tsunami.
“Don’t do that,” Kellen tells me. He’s watching my face, reading me like a book. “Don’t overthink it. Are you annoyed with me for not saying?”
I glance over at him, so gorgeous, so vulnerable at this point, laying next to me. Xan’s gone for food for us all, the twins for a walk with Betty.
“I was. I was angry that you’d never said I wasn’t enough. That you wanted Xander.”
He shakes his head at me, his eyes so focused on me.
“You were enough. You are, Kitten. Always.” He’s begging me to believe him. To understand. “Even if you had said no, I would still want to be with you. I wouldn’t have been with Xan that way. But Xan’s always been there. We always were together, just not exclusively so, and not on a regular basis. And certainly never whilst we have been together. He did his thing I did mine, but I’ve known since the first time I saw you in that club that he would want you too. He always did.”
He touches my face, pouring his love into his touch. “This, for me, it’s amazing. More than I could have hoped for. But know this Evie—it’s just us. No one else will see you or us together, and we’ll play it however you want inside and outside the house.” His face is a mask of seriousness. They’re both well aware of what’s ahead of us.
“Is Gabe upset?” I ask, concerned. I really don't want my extended family upset by our decisions. And family is definitely what Gabe and Levi are.
“Yeah. He, as you know, always wanted a relationship with me. But I was never bothered. So he bided his time and touched me when we were with other women, but he would have liked it to be just him and I. He’s upset about Xan the most, I think. You, he gets. Xan, he doesn’t,” he finishes flatly.
His fingers trace the veins on my breasts, leaning forwards to kiss my skin. “I can smell Xan on you. It turns me on when I can. I love watching him make love to you. I’ve never seen him like he is with you. Usually he’s so detached, cold and calculated. But here now, he’s all in, full of life. Fire and free. I love it.”
“You’re not jealous? That I love him?” I watch his eyes for any signs of concern.
He shakes his head, completely comfortable. “I feel happy. Do you feel jealous when I touch him? What about when you come home and see us fucking? Will you be unhappy about it?”
I shake my head at that and wonder how come I feel like that.
“I don’t know why, but no. I would be happy you’re both together. It’s a bit weird that I think that, but no, I wouldn’t be jealous at all.” I stare into his face, trying to make sure he knows I’m speaking the truth.
“It's not weird, it’s love. Xander loves us, is in love with us. We love each other, we all want the same thing. It’s everyone else that’ll be the problem.” His face changes to a grimace.
I sigh dejectedly. “I know, I’m worried about the twins. James and Bucky. I spoke to Jonno last night. He was fine. Said James knew and was also fine.” I put my head back on the pillow. “I’ll be mortified if my family gets hurt because of how I love you both.” My brain has started to spin out in a negative manner.
“We’ll protect each other. Look, don’t worry too much about it now. Let’s enjoy this time together and we can sort the rest later.” He smiles at me and my heart stops. How can it be wrong when I feel like this?
I touch his face, tracing his black eye. “Was it bad?” I say, kissing his eyelids.
He nods. “Got some stuff to tell you both, but it can wait.” His grin returns as he pulls me down the bed underneath him, his cock pushing at me.
“I’m going to put you both on rations, otherwise I’ll be dead in a week,” I say, laughing as he kisses my neck and nibbles my ears.
