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I lay her down and then moved to the side and simply stared.
Stared at the being I had never thought I would get lucky enough to find.
Stared at the being I had daydreamed about when I allowed myself that honor, to see her in my bed.
To have someone who only wanted me.
Someone I could trust.
Someone I could give all my secrets to.
Someone I could simply just be.
And she was lying there, right in front of me.
She lifted up on her elbow and smiled.
Then she softly whispered, “What?”
I shook my head.
It was too soon to say every thought I had in my head.
But I found myself saying, as I twisted a lock of her hair around my finger, feeling the softness, “Never thought I’d have this.”
Her face went soft, and then she winked, “Same.”
She licked her lips, her eyes twinkled, and then she scanned my torso, and I knew when she saw it.
“Xander... what?” she asked.
I knew what she was asking.
I didn’t want to talk about those scars.
What happened.
How I got them.
Especially not in this bed.
I didn’t want to taint this perfect moment between us.
A moment I would place behind a glass box and keep it safe, locking it in the recesses of my mind so it would forever remain with me if this was the only time I got to have her delectable body.
When I didn’t answer her, I just stared into those stunning eyes of hers. She simply smiled a soft smile and then began to move.
And how she began to move... if I wasn’t already lying down... I would have fallen on my ass.
Her little tongue poked out of her mouth, and with careful swipes, she lathed at each scar.
Caressing.
Kissing.
Trying to soothe away the ache, the only way she could.
She would never know, and I didn’t know if I would ever tell her... but what she just did for me... she helped erase away a few demons that still lingered.
