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I shook my head.

“This is the last straw,” I told them as I shook my head.

My Aunt Tempie opened her mouth.

And I could read it clearly. The thought was written all over her face.

She wanted to tell me;I told you so.

But she didn’t.

I just smiled sadly at her and nodded, “You were right.”

'Sometimes it takes an overwhelming breakdown to have an undeniable breakthrough.’

– Xander’s Life Lesson.

Chapter 15

Xander

I was being a fucking idiot.

That was the only thought I had five days later.

Jackknifing out of bed, I decided I wasn’t going to another minute without Nola knowing how I really feel.

And after I laid all my shit down at her feet, it would be up to her if she walked all over my shit and never talked to me again.

But I had to take that chance.

Because the stars in the sky were dimmer.

The blood that pumped through my body seemed to slow.

And those demons that haunted me in the night were exhausting.

And... all it took was having a dream of her and me in a few years with our own kids, kids I would never treat like my mom had treated me, for me to get the bigger picture.

They say that a man who is afraid to be vulnerable for the woman he loves doesn’t deserve her.

I really don’t deserve her.

But she was right.

It was her decision.

Her choice.

I just hoped like fuck that if I got her back, I would never made her regret her decision to choose me.

I got dressed and then raced out of my room and down the stairs.

“Where are you going, Xander?” I heard Merlin call out.

“Nola’s,” I said as I barreled through the main level of the clubhouse.

“She’s not there.” I heard him say.

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