Page 20 of Heal You
“Do I look like I didn’t want to do it?”Aware that Morgan was potentially about to panic, Jan took her hand and guided Morgan towards the door.“How about we rustle up a few shots downstairs?To calm your nerves if nothing else.”
Morgan nodded.“Y-yeah.Shots.That’s a good idea.”
Jan wasn’t convinced it was a good idea; she couldn’t be sure that another kisswouldn’thappen again…or more, depending on how much they drank, but she was one hundred percent sure that this feeling she had was a good feeling.Morgan made her feel wanted.She made her feel less alone and less humiliated.“Come on.Relax.”
Thankful that Morgan was following her out of the door, Jan decided it would be best if she put one foot in front of the other and focused on making it down the stairs.Her legs were like jelly, her mind was whirring, and her blood…well, it was pumping hard in many places right now.God, Jan couldn’t recall the last time she’d felt so aroused.
But she wouldn’t tell Morgan that.Not just yet.She had a feeling Morgan needed a moment to gather her thoughts.What may have been shocking to her just moments ago wasn’t quite so shocking to Jan.Perhaps she just didn’t care anymore.Perhaps Phil had done the best thing for them without either of them realising it.
“Hey, um…we’re okay, right?”Morgan took Jan by the hand as they landed inside the dark, closed bar.She visibly swallowed, slight frown lines present.“Like, you’re not going to freak out and run out on me, are you?”
Instead of reassuring Morgan with words, Jan tugged her closer and drew her into another kiss.Morgan trembled against her, but that was a mistake.Because now, Jan wanted to continue kissing her whilst preparing herself for so much more.If she could find a woman who trembled from a simple kiss, then Jan would be out of her mind to not enjoy it.She pulled back and ran her tongue along her bottom lip.“I’m not going to freak out, and I’m certainly not about to run away, either.”
“Okay.Good.”Morgan wrapped an arm around Jan’s waist and smiled.“I don’t know what the fuck is happening here, but it’s all on your terms, okay?”
“Our terms,” Jan said as she turned out of Morgan’s arm and stepped behind the bar.“So, what do I need for these shots?”
Morgan remained in her spot, blinking repeatedly.“Um.”
“Earth to Morgan.”Jan waved a hand in front of Morgan’s face, choosing to ignore the wetness between her own thighs.
“I’m sorry, but you can’t kiss me like that and then expect me to function like a normal human being after it.”Morgan shook her head as she closed her eyes.“I needat leasta minute.”
“Okay, well, you take that minute, and I’ll see if I know how to pull a pint.”
Morgan suddenly stepped up behind Jan as she lifted a pint glass from the shelf behind her.“No, no.I’ll show you.”Morgan’s arms came around Jan’s body as she carefully took the glass from her, her breath washing over Jan’s ear.“You can’t just pull a pint.You have to know what you’re doing.”
“Mm.You know what you’re doing.”Jan turned her face to Morgan, their lips barely an inch apart.“I have a feeling youreallyknow what you’re doing.”
Flustered, Morgan eyed Jan and cleared her throat.“Andyouhave to concentrate.”
“Oh, I am.”Jan stood mesmerised by Morgan’s soft brown eyes.She’d found herself gazing into them often now, but in this moment, it was far more intense.If Jan could read people the way she believed she could, then she knew Morgan was feeling the very same effects that Jan was.“I’m definitely concentrating.”
“O-on the beer.You should be watching the beer.Me…pouring the beer.”Morgan groaned.“Fuck, nowIcan’t concentrate.”
Jan turned her face away and watched Morgan’s shaking hand hold the glass.She pulled the arm on the pump, and Jan watched the amber liquid cascade from the spout.When Morgan was finished, she set it down on the clean drip tray beneath and settled her arms around Jan’s waist.
“I know that kiss was unexpected, and I know you’re going through a lot, but just so you know…I didn’t want it to end.”Morgan stroked her thumb against Jan’s skin where her blouse had ridden up slightly.“I’m also finding it very hard to keep my hands to myself, so can we make those shots before I lose my mind?”
Jan brought one of Morgan’s arms from around her waist and guided her hand lower.It rested on the waistband of her jeans, the tremble barely present now.“Just soyouknow, I’m more than happy for those hands you can’t keep to yourself to explore wherever they need to explore.”Jan heard Morgan swallow again, and then Morgan slowly dipped her hand and cupped Jan through her jeans.“O-oh.”Jan tried to arch her back, but Morgan held her flush against her.“M-Morgan.”
Morgan turned her face towards Jan’s ear and whispered, “I’d really love to touch you.”
Jan could only nod, her lips parting as her head rested back on Morgan’s shoulder.
“CanI touch you?”
“Y-yes.”Jan’s heart rate spiked when Morgan popped the button on her jeans and slid her fingers past the waistband, directly inside her underwear.She stroked Jan’s wet lips, moaning her approval as she kissed Jan’s neck.“Oh, God.”
Jan hadn’t known what to expect, but she was finding it difficult to take a normal breath every time Morgan moved an inch.“You’re soaking.Just how I like women to be.”Jan felt Morgan smirk against her neck.“Tell me what you need…”
Oh, fuck.Jan couldn’t begin to explain what she needed.The more Morgan teased her fingers up and down her lips, the wetter Jan became.“More.I need more.”
Morgan obliged, pressing two fingers against Jan’s clit.The moan that left Jan’s mouth was far more than surprising to her.She didn’t think she was capable of being so vocal, but here she was, whimpering as Morgan rolled her fingers a little harder over her clit.“I think you need a lot more attention than you’ve been getting.”Morgan inched lower and eased a finger inside Jan.She tightened, her world spinning as her entire body came alive.Trulyalive.“And if nobody has ever told you before, you feel so fucking good that I’m trying to hold back.”Morgan nipped at Jan’s earlobe, forcing her closer to the edge.“May I fuck you, Jan?”
Oh, my.Was this really what Jan had been missing all these years?A woman who knew exactly what she was doing.A moment with someone that could redefine who Jan was?Jan gripped Morgan’s wrist and urged her deeper inside as she sunk down.“P-please.”
“You have to say it…” Morgan teased
