Page 28 of Crown of Storm and Silence
"Probably," I agree, darkening my hair and softening the sharp edges that scream 'supernatural predator.' "But sitting up here brooding like some tragic figure in a romantic tragedy isn't accomplishing anything except making me more insufferable than usual."
The village children are my key. They always are—innocents respond to magic differently than adults, with wonder instead of fear, curiosity instead of suspicion. And Nesilhan, even wearingthe name Elif, has always been helpless against anything that tugs at her protective instincts.
I find them playing in the village square as the afternoon light begins to fade, a collection of grubby little humans engaged in some complicated game involving sticks and stones.
"Hello," I say, settling onto a convenient bench with movements designed not to startle small prey. "Interesting... thing you're doing there."
The youngest—a girl with braided hair and a gap-toothed grin—looks up at me, and I watch her natural curiosity war with instinctive wariness. Children always sense what I am, even when adults miss it entirely. Her smile falters as she takes in my appearance.
"You're scary," she announces with the brutal honesty only children possess.
"Yes," I agree, because lying to children has never been my forte. "I am rather intimidating. It's something of an occupational hazard."
The other children have stopped their game now, clustering together as they stare at me with wide eyes. I can smell their fear, sweet and sharp, and my shadows respond to it by coiling more tightly around my feet. This is not going according to plan.
"I don't suppose," I say carefully, like someone attempting to communicate with a particularly skittish species of wildlife, "any of you would like to see some magic?"
They exchange glances, torn between terror and curiosity. It's the older boy who speaks up. "What kind of magic?"
The memory hits me suddenly—another group of children, sitting in the dirt while Nesilhan knelt among them like she belonged there. The way she'd smiled when I created a shadow butterfly for them, how she'd defended me when they recoiled in fear. "He's very powerful," she'd said, her voice carrying suchwarmth, such pride. "But he uses his power to protect people he cares about."
My shadows begin to move without conscious direction, responding to the memory, to the desperate need to recapture something I'd lost. They flow outward with gentle purpose, pooling in the dusty square. The children gasp—some in delight, others in alarm—as the shadows begin to take shape.
A butterfly. Just like before. Dark wings that shimmer with impossible light as it dances through the air above their heads.
"How are you doing that?" one of them breathes, eyes wide with wonder.
I don't answer because I'm not entirely sure myself. The butterfly shouldn't be glowing—shadow creatures don't carry light. But there it is, wings shimmering with gentle radiance that shouldn't be possible for me to create.
It's only when I see her watching from across the square that I realize what's happening. This isn't just shadow magic.
The children cheer, clapping their hands in delight, but I'm barely aware of their reaction.
I know where this magic is coming from now. It's not mine—it's the child. Our impossible child, carrying both shadow and light in perfect balance, calling to my magic from within her womb. Even with the bond severed, even with her memories gone, our child recognizes me and responds, channeling her dormant light magic through the connection we share.
Nesilhan stands frozen beside the baker's stall, one hand pressed unconsciously to her belly, watching my performance with an expression I can't quite read. There's confusion there, and wariness, but also something else—recognition, perhaps.
"Is that really magic?" one child whispers.
"The best kind," I tell her, never taking my eyes off Nesilhan watching from across the square. "The kind that happens when light and shadow learn to dance together."
The butterfly's wings flare with gentle radiance one final time before it dissolves back into ordinary shadow. I see her gasp, see her free hand rise to her throat.
The children scatter with promises to return tomorrow, leaving me alone in the square as twilight gathers. Nesilhan approaches slowly, her steps careful and deliberate.
"That was..." she begins, then stops.
"Shadow magic," I finish, turning to face her fully. "The kind your body remembers even when your mind doesn't."
She flinches at the implication, but doesn't retreat. "You're him. Kaan."
"The one and only," I agree with a theatrical bow. "And you're Nesilhan, no matter what name you've chosen to hide behind."
"I told you?—"
"Your name is Elif, yes, I remember." I step closer, noting how she tenses but doesn't flee. "Tell me something, Elif. When you watched that little shadow play, what did you feel? And please don't say 'terrified of the obviously dangerous man making darkness dance'—I get enough of that from everyone else."
She's quiet for a long moment. "Familiar," she admits finally. "Like remembering a dream after waking."
