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I desperately kiss her all over her face and neck, trying to reach her. Raven keeps fighting me so I pin her wrists on top of her head.
I yank her shorts down, barely aware of her screams and hits. I am shaking with my need for her.
I breathe into my ear. “I can't live without you, baby. You are in my system, imprinted on my soul. Just love me. That's all I want. I will make you so happy, I promise.”
I push two fingers inside her and bite her neck and breasts. I keep assuring her with soothing words.
I yank my own sweatpants down when I feel her getting wet. A huge relief washes over me. Of course she wants me. She feels the same way.
I kiss her feverishly, trying to pour every bit of myself into it.
Ikiss her like a maniac while I slip inside her.
Sweet fucking heaven. My home. InsidemyRaven.
I start to work on her clit with my fingers and finally hear Raven set off.
Everything else fades away when she falls apart like this. I finally know what we mean to each other.
We come together, with me holding her as close as I possibly can.
It’s not till I clean us up and carry her to the bed do I realize the weight of my actions.
Raven is completely unresponsive. I am holding her but she is shaking uncontrollably. There are still tear remnants on her beautiful cheek. She looks like the calm before the storm.
There is a different type of anger brewing inside of Raven. One that tells me that nothing will be the same again after this moment. One that tells me that she doesn’t understand or see it the way I do, and she will never forgive me for tonight.
I finally pushed her too far.
Raven looks broken right now. At this very moment a disturbing realization is dawning on me.
I have lost her for good.
I pretend to be asleep, but my hold on her is ironclad grip. I want her to know that even when I have lost her, and even when I am unconscious, I’ll still never let her go.
The Next Day
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Reid
“What do you mean by leaving?” I tilt my face at Raven.
“I mean that I am departing, exiting, going away from here,” Raven sasses back.
I roll my eyes. “Thanks asshole. I know what the word leaving means. I just don’t understand why now.”
“Why not now? I am basically done with my semester. I spoke to all my teachers today. I just have a few more assignments to finish. They agreed to let me email them. I already got accepted to my remote internship in Paris for next semester. As long as I complete the internship, I will graduate in spring. It just makes good sense to leave for Paris now so I can settle in.”
I am baffled. Raven is packing her suitcase at manic speed and just informed me that she is flying out to Paris in a few hours.
This is so sudden. I have no idea where this is coming from. I am trying to calm her down. I am trying to reason with her.
“Raven, you are seventeen. Don’t you need a parent or someone to buy your ticket? I thought if you are underage, you can’t travel unless a parent or guardian approves it. And I doubt Milo will approve it.”
“Fuck Milo! I don’t give two fucks what he will approve of,” Raven snaps.
It immediately becomes awkwardly quiet in the room. I watch her apprehensively as she continues to pack like a beast.
