Page 140 of Heartless Heathens
“Yeah, except she’s avoiding him all to hell, always looking like a puppy that just got kicked, and he’s not doing whatever weird shit it is he does to her. Has she left your room at night? Do you hear her screaming at two in the morning anymore?” He pointed out the obvious and I looked down, avoiding all of their eyes.
“Hmm.” Felix hummed out loud.
“So what is it, little lamb? Cuz this asshole sure as shit isn’t opening up. Did Sonny hurt your pride? He lyin’ to you about how he feels?” My head shot up with his questions, betraying any attempt I had to stay in control.
Corvin knew me too well, and he knew Sonny even better.
“Just fucking tell her Sonny,” Felix said exhaustedly.
Sonny’s gaze was bitter.
“He can’t.” I lost control and a tear rolled down my cheek.
“You have everything you could want now, you don’t need us, if you aren’t happy then take your money and go.” he spat out venomously, his words were like a blow to my heart.
Corvin snorted from behind and whispered, “There it is,” to his brother like he was amused.
“Why do you enjoy seeing me broken down?” The tears began to cascade freely down my face as I lost my resolve to stay strong.
“Because this is when I want you the most,” Sonny said with an icy dark tone as he stepped close to me, ignoring the snake’s warning while she hissed angrily behind the glass. “When you’re vulnerable, when you’re raw and cracked wide open for me to see all your faults and who you really are.” He wiped the next tear before it could fall. “Because sometimes when it hurts, it’s best to cut it open to get rid of all the pain.”
He hooked his arm around my waist to pull me in close to him, his chest pressed against mine before he took my chin into his hand and sealed his lips to mine.
“I want to know that you’re desperate for me,” he said, a glowing look to his eyes that I hadn’t seen before.
“You know I am,” I whispered out but he frowned.
“Do I?”
“Just tell her why you’re scared. Why are you toying with her?” Corvin asked him but he scoffed.
“Toying with her? You want me to bear my soul to someone who doesn’t even know how to do the same? How am I supposed to trust she’s not going to go back to him every time she gets scared of what real life is like?” His fear slammed straight into my chest, leaving me breathless.
I had done absolutely nothing to earn their loyalty, their allegiance.
But yet somehow they’d granted me their care, their protection, their attention.
It suddenly occurred to me that I’d been dying to hear him say something I myself couldn’t construct into words. I’d given nothing in return.
“I realize that.” I raised my chin up to look him in the eyes, wiping some of the heart break from my expression with the realization of what I’d been asking of him.
“You want me to get on my knees and tell you I like you Pet? Well I won’t. I didn’t say it then and I won’t say it now and you sure as shit won’t ever hear it coming out of my mouth.”
“I will,” I said, dropping to my knees. “How can I prove to you that this is it for me? How can I prove to you that I trust you?”
A dark shadow passed over his eyes and his voice turned cold.
“Maybe next time you throw yourself to the wolves you’ll trust my judgment when you have to put your life in someone else's hands.” His upper lip peeled up.
“I don’t want to wait for that. You said you wanted my death. Take it.” I pulled my shoulders back and looked up at him through my eyelashes.
He laughed.
Always sounded so sinister out of his mouth.
Unhinged.
“Is this what you fucking want from me?” He grabbed my hair at the top of my scalp and pulled me up, slamming me against his chest.
