Page 99 of How to Get Revenge on a Cheating Ex
My feelings exactly.
Grayson’s gaze flickers over to Toni and he flinches at whatever he sees. “I’ll have one of the guys take her home,” he says to me.
“She’sright here,” Toni says.
Her irritation about being spoken of in the third person might have been more effective if she hadn’t hiccuped loudly at the end.
“Right.” Grayson gives her this condescending little grimace of regret that makes me want to scream all over again, but this time in rage.
Who does he think he is? What gives him the right to look down on everyone in our school? What makes him think he’s so much better than Zack?
And that’s what he thinks. I’ve always known it. Heck, much as I hate to admit it, there was a time whenIbelieved that bullshit.
I get hit with another wave of revulsion. Once upon a time, I’d actually compared the two guys and found Grayson to be the winner.
God, sometimes I just want to go back in time and kick my own ass.
“I’ll ask Zack to take me home,” Toni says. I’m pretty sure she’s talking to me, and then she’s trying to get past us. To leave us alone.
Or maybe she just wants to escape the spotlight.
If curious looks could burn, Grayson and I would be on fire right now. The crowd’s inching closer like they might be able to hear us over the music.
They can’t. And theywon’tbecause I have nothing left to say. I start to turn away but he stops me with a hand on my arm.
“Bae, just hear me out,” he says as he steps in front of me.
I shift, shaking off his hand as I try to move past him. All I want is to join Toni, and find Zack, and the three of us can get the hell out of here.
But Grayson’s blocking my way. And he’s a big guy. He doesn’t even have to move to keep me in my place. All he has to do is stand here and I’m trapped.
And back when we were a couple?The thought comes out of nowhere.
All he’d had to do then was prey on my insecurities to keep me on my leash. Looking up at him now, all those old feelings come back with a vengeance. The way he’d made me feel paranoid, and needy, and boring, and plain, and like…like I wasn’t enough.
Like I could never be enough.
And God, I actually fell for it. I want to cry and scream and then maybe cry all over again.
But not here. Not now.
So I clench my hands into fists and sneer up at him. “You are such anasshole.”
It feels good to finally say it aloud. But he acts like he doesn’t even hear. “You were hurt, Bae. I totally get that.”
I arch my brows and use a saccharine tone. “Oh really? Do youget that?”
He gives me a chiding look, like he’s disappointed that I’ve reverted to sarcasm. It’s a look that says I’m being immature.
Maybe I am. I choke on a laugh. Maybe Zack’s been rubbing off on me, after all, because right now the fact thatI’mbeing immature strikes me as hilarious.
“What do you want, Grayson?” I fold my arms over my chest. “What exactly do you think is going to happen here?”
“I just want to talk.”
“Err.” I mimic Zack’s buzzer sound. “Try again.”
I want Zack to be here right now. I wish he was at my side, helping me to put this asswipe in his place.
