Page 60 of Search My Soul
“And instead of asking me, you decided to fuck my friend. Wow, you bitches really are scandalous.” These two were going back and forth like they weren’t in danger. I shook my head in disgust because little buddy was going out sad behind a pathetic hoe.
“All right. I’ve heard enough of this bullshit. I’m supposed to be watching movies and cuddling with my bitch tonight. She doesn’t like it when I don’t clean all the blood off, so I need to hurry up so I can take a shower. Do you have any last words? You know what, never mind. You’ve talked enough.” I raised my Glock and shot them both in the head. “Clean this shit up. You can either use the incinerator or the acid bath. I know you’ve been wanting to try it out,” I instructed Huncho and Mace before heading out of the warehouse. I washed my hands but decided to wait until I got home to take a shower. Neeya was cooking dinner tonight, so that would give me time to thoroughly clean myself.
I chuckled to myself because I never thought this would be my life. I used to make fun of Murk for the way he would rush home after we finished murkin’ a nigga, but now I understood. Juicy brought excitement and happiness to my life. She gave me something to look forward to every day. When I came home, she greeted me with love and affection. She thanked God every day I made it back safely, and it felt good to be cared for. The way her eyes lit up when she saw me touched a nigga’s soul. This love shit was scary as fuck, but with her, everything fell right into place.
The drive was long, but it gave me a chance to release all of my dark thoughts and feelings. Juicy was my stress reliever, but I tried my best to keep this part of my life away from her. I never wanted her to see me as Grim. I only wanted her to see me as Soul. The man she loved and looked to for protection. She saw somuch good in me, and even though I couldn’t see what she saw, I never wanted her to see me any other way.
“Daddy’s home!” Juicy sang, strutting her sexy ass over to me. The boys cut right in front of her to hop their big asses on me. These mothafuckas thought they were small dogs, but I damn near fell against the door from how heavy they were.
“Okay, boys. Y’all are hoggin’ my man, and I don’t like that,” Juicy fussed. Both of them jumped down and went over to her to give her love as if they hadn’t been with her for hours. After they finished, the two of them went to the living room and lay on the floor.
“What’s up, Juicy baby? You got it smelling good in here as usual. I swear you over here tryna fatten me up.” I insisted, bringing her in for a kiss. I hated kisses until she came along, and now I couldn’t get enough. If she forgot to kiss me at night, I took that shit personally. She had spoiled me, and I wasn’t ashamed to admit it.
“Hey, papa. I missed you today. Mmmm.” She moaned as I kissed her a little deeper. Her lips were soft and juicy, making it hard for me to pull away.
“Gone on, sir. You know I have no self-control.” Juicy pulled back from me, but her eyes were telling me exactly what I needed to know.
“Come on. I’m about to hop in the shower. You might as well meet me in the room when I’m done.” I tried to reach for her, but she stepped back.
“Nope You tricked me last week, and we never got to watch the movie. You can wait a few hours.” Her laughter was intoxicating, and I found myself admiring the beauty that stood before me. Juicy was undeniably gorgeous, but it was her heart that made her even more irresistible to me.
“Fine. We can watch this funky ass movie, but don’t get it twisted. You gon’ be riding this dick before the night is over.”
“You already know. I need my daily dose of Nyquil. Now, hurry up and get cleaned up because you stink.” She plugged her nose and fanned the air dramatically.
“Man, go ahead. I don’t smell that bad. I got you though.” I leaned forward to kiss her, and she obliged.
“I love you, Juicy.” She paused, observing me for a moment.
“I love you too. Always.”
I smacked her on the ass before heading to my room. I needed to wash my sins off before I spent time with my baby. She was my obsession, and I didn’t care what I had to do, I was never losing her.
The DJ was playinghit after hit, and the club was packed from wall to wall. My cousins were having the time of their lives celebrating their birthday tonight, and they brought the whole city out.
“Take another shot, trick!” Peaches staggered over to me with a bottle of Don Julio in her hands. We had been drinking since we left their party, and I lost count of how many shots we had taken.
“Peaches, I’m already drunk.”
“Girl, I’m not tryna hear any excuses. Tank and Ant are our designated drivers, and you already know my brothers are not gonna let anything happen to us.” She wasn’t lying. My cousins were known for wreaking havoc wherever they went. Tank hadjust gotten out of prison six months ago, and we were praying he stayed out of trouble this time around.
“I know, but?—”
“But nothing. Open your mouth and take this shot.” My phone rang, and Peaches snatched the phone from my hands and stuffed it in her cross body purse.
“No phones. We are here to turn up and celebrate. You can worry about this phone when we leave.” Peaches was a bossy Virgo who didn’t believe in the word no, so I never bothered to argue with her. Even though I was a few years older, her and Passion used to boss us all around as kids.
“Whatever. Give me the damn shot.” The only reason I wasn’t tripping was because my man had been out of town for the last few days. He wasn’t due back until Monday, and I fully planned to shut the world out when he touched down.
“Oh, they’re playin’ our song!” Passion screamed as the DJ played “Ride It” by D-Roc and Masego. I loved both artists separately, but together, there were masterminds.
Peaches grabbed my hand, and we followed Passion onto the dance floor. We pushed through a crowd of people until we got close to the middle. My cousins loved to be the center of attention, so I wasn’t surprised at all. The twins bent over and wobbled their asses to the music as the crowd around us cheered them on. The DJ shouted them out for their birthday which only made them go harder. I stood there hyping them up, but the minute Peaches realized I wasn’t dancing, she yanked me over to her.
“Don’t play with me, cousin. You got too much ass not to shake it. Come on.” I rolled my eyes but decided to let my hair down and live for the moment. The DJ played another one of our favorites, and I took that as a sign.
My dress was short, so I wasn’t trying to do too much. I wore shorts underneath it, but I still wanted to be cautious.My cousins hyped me up as I dropped down to a squat and twerked to the beat. More people stood around as we had a battle between the three of us. Three songs later, and I was ready to throw in the towel before they played a classic. One of those classic songs that brought everybody to the dance floor. I promised myself this would be the last one because I needed some water.
As I bent over, I felt someone come up behind me. When I turned around, I saw that it was a man I went to school with. I used to have a crush on him in middle school, but he was one of the popular guys in school, so all the girls wanted him. Kasir White. He was cute in school, but the man in front of me was downright gorgeous now. Not as handsome as my man, but he could have definitely been a model.
