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Pretending like I don’t see him, I keep going. My thrusts are more erratic, more desperate, each one bringing me closer to the edge. The pleasure is out of this world.
I’m unsure if Harper has noticed Tyler until she moans louder. Her arousal is suddenly heightened. She’s seen him and she loves this. Her pussy clenches around me, making it impossible to control myself.
“Fuck, I’m about to come,” I hiss through clenched teeth.
When I hear a quiet groan from Tyler, I know he’s finished first.
Harper finishes too. A scream of pure bliss tears from her throat. Her body trembles and her pussy clamps my dick as she meets her climax.
Unable to help myself, I bury the full length of my cock in Harper one final time. I’m blacking out, that’s how intense eclipse makes this. The orgasm seems to never stop. I’m so connected to our trio that I feel like I’m experiencing their pleasure too.
My hips jerk, and as I empty myself inside our girl, all I can think is that this is how it’s supposed to be. Not just Harper and me, but the three of us.
I’ve finally experienced the eclipse orgasm and emotional connection people rave about.
God. I am sofuckingsick in the head. I need to be stopped before I do something irreversibly wrong.
CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
HARPER
“I stillcan’t believe you’re having sex with both of them,” Cindy shouts into my ear to be heard over the music.
The two of us are at the house party of Cindy’s latest crush, Kaleb North. She’s wearing a mini dress that emphasizes her cleavage to impress him. They met through her cousin a few weeks ago. His house is a sleek, modern mansion tucked into the hills of Riverdale, the kind of place that has old money written all over it.
The living room is packed with people either drunk or high. I swear, I’m the only one interested in remaining sober. Even Cindy is tipsy. I wanted to bring Felix and Tyler with me, but Cindy insisted it be a girls’ night, just us two since we haven’t spent much time together in recent months. She’s right. I’ve been absent due to grief and my own love life and need to make more of an effort for our friendship.
Felix and Tyler are with their younger brothers at the Blackwood penthouse tonight. They aren’t happy that I’m alone at this party with Cindy. Felix has always beenagainst her. Now Tyler is too, ever since the incident with Cindy’s younger sister finding out about us.
The three of us got into a fight about this party earlier in the week. They made it clear their concerns weren’t about me socializing without them, but that they don’t trust my judgment with Cindy. I wouldn’t back down. She’s not a jealous friend. She’s been nothing but supportive.
The fight ended with intense make-up sex. Felix first then Tyler. In separate rooms. I thought Felix’s stance on the three of us being together at once might have changed after our eclipse experience. Apparently not.
It’s nice spending alone time with Cindy, even if we aren’t technically alone. Cindy has been boy-crazed for years, always yapping my ear off about kissing and orgasms and sex, while I sat and listened, not having anything to add to the conversation. Now, I have alotto share, and it’s fun having a girlfriend to confide in.
Ballet hasn’t been a topic of discussion once this evening. Throughout our subway ride here to Riverdale, and all through the party so far, Cindy has been listening to my stories of Tyler and Felix, with her eyes wide and jaw hanging open in astonishment. We’ve laughed and joked around to the point of tears during several occasions just tonight.
It’s been a week since my visit to The Clover. A week since eclipse. I haven’t had a chance to tell Cindy about it before now. She’s only recently recovered from the flu.
Cindy grabs my wrist, pulling me into the kitchen where the party isn’t as rowdy. We’re alone in here. The countertops are cluttered with half-empty liquor bottles, and someone has abandoned a pizza.
Once checking no one is listening in, I continue, “Felix says we can’t do eclipse again. Not for a while.”
“Why?”
“He says eclipse can turn into a sexual addiction where you rely on it for pleasure and emotional connection. He doesn’t want us to start depending on it. I don’t want that either. What the three of us have is incredible.”
“Sounds like you already have a sex addiction,” she laughs, slurring her words.
I swat Cindy’s arm, laughing with her. “I don’t have a sex addiction.”
She can’t stop giggling with all the alcohol in her system. Cindy attempts to keep a straight face and be serious with me, but it’s a struggle. “Harper, I love you. I love that you’re going through an experimental phase. But do you think maybe you’re taking this too far? I know you’re dealing with grief, but turning to sex and drugs isn’t healthy.”
I laugh her comment off, brushing my hands down my dress. “You need to drink some water. I appreciate your concern, but I’m not experimenting. Tyler and Felix aren’t a coping mechanism.”
“Really? A few months ago, you wereallabout chastity. You would’ve been horrified at the idea of having sex before marriage, let alone with two brothers. YouhatedFelix.”
I frown, deflated by her response. But I do understand her point. I’ve changed a lot in the last few months. I wish I could find some way to make Cindy understand that I spent years forcing myself into a box that never fit. That being with Felix and Tyler feels more right than anything ever has.
