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“I would’ve loved second base.” Finley smiled. “Second base with you is great. Your boobs are fucking amazing.”
Molly allowed herself a little laugh and added, “I wanted that perfect first time with you, and I got in my own way. I got inyourway, and I’m sorry.”
“It will never be like your fantasies, Molls. You know that, right?”
“I know.” She ran a thumb over Finley’s cheek. “I don’t need it to be. I don’t know what will happen if we try again, though.”
“If?”
“It’s up to you.” She leaned in a little. “I don’t want this to be over, and I don’t think I’d forgive myself if I ruined it, but it’s up to you if I get another chance, Finley.”
“I want one,” Finley replied instantly. “I want another chance.”
“You do?”
“Yes. Molly, you can trust me,” Finley told her, pressing their foreheads together. “If you’re in your head, you can trust me; you can tell me when that’s the case. You can tell me to stop or ask me to start doing something else. You can tell me if it doesn’t feel good or if you need something else to help you get there. I just want to touch you. God, I want to touch you again. I would love to make you come, but it’s not about that. It’s about being with you. I wanted to comewithyou for the first time. I wanted that connection to you. If you don’t like that, though, or if it doesn’t make you come–”
“Do that again next time,” Molly interjected.
“Yeah?” Finley asked.
“I liked it. And I wanted it, Finley. It’s not that I didn’t. It was just so much pressure to finally have you there with me that I crumbled beneath it, and I wasn’t ready to say anything about it last night or even this morning, so I’m sorry I’ve left you feeling like this all day.”
“Can we just start over?”
“Over?” she asked, pulling back a bit to stare into Finley’s eyes.
“Not all the way.” Finley smirked. “Just at that part. I know we can’t technically undo it, not that you’re saying you would, but maybe we can try our first time again.”
“I’d like that,” Molly replied. “But not tonight.”
“Tonight, I’ll just stay over, and we can try to get some sleep. Is that okay? I want to fall asleep next to you, Molls.”
“Maybe second base?”
Finley laughed, and for the first time that day, it seemed like she had a genuine smile on her face and appeared to be relieved.
CHAPTER 29
“You know, I’m thinking I might give up on dating for a while,” Ava said.
“You will?” Logan asked.
“To be honest, I thought I was over her, but I’m not.”
“She means Bonnie,” Rory explained to India, Finley, and Molly, who were the newest additions to this large group. “Her ex,” she added for Finley and India’s benefit, mainly, since Molly would have known that already.
“Sorry, Molly,” Ava said.
“No need,” Molly replied.
Finley glanced over at her and watched Molly casually sip on the beer they were sharing. India looked at Finley and just rolled her eyes. Finley thought about how India seemed to be genuine in her request for a friendship between them; she just wasn’t sure ifshewas ready to dive right into that. That was especially true because, even though Molly seemed okay with India being here, that didn’t mean she’d be okay with Finley pursuing a friendship with her right now.
“So, I think I’m deleting the app.”
“I tried an app once,” India said.
“Yeah? Didn’t work?” Ava asked.
