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“Yes, I’ve already had three cups and peed twice while waiting for you,” she replied.
“I’m on time,” Juliet noted as she sat in the chair across from her. “We said nine-thirty, right?”
“Yes, we did,” she said. “I had a night.” She sighed.
“A good one, I hope. You left with Finley, and it was pretty clear what you two were going to do. You are a really bad actress; you know that, right?” Juliet teased, but Molly sobered. “Molls, what?”
“I definitely know I’m not a great actress because I’m pretty sure Finley knows that, too.”
“Huh?”
“Hi there. What can I get you?” a woman asked when she approached their table, smacking gum between her teeth and holding an order pad.
“Can I get coffee and pancakes?” Juliet asked. “Three stack.”
“Sure.”
“I’ll just have the same. But can I have bacon on the side and extra syrup?” Molly asked.
“No problem. And be right back with your coffee,” the woman added to Juliet before walking away.
“Molly, what are you talking about? Did you two not–”
“We did,” Molly interjected. “And I fucked it up.”
“What do you mean, you fucked it up?”
“I mean that I don’t think I was ready.”
“To be with her?”
Molly nodded and said, “I got a little carried away at the bar last night. She was touching me, and I was on fire. I’d just talked to Ava and told her that we weren’t going anywhere. She was cool with that, but I think Finley got jealous, and that turned me on more. Then, suddenly, she’s in my apartment, and I’m pressed to the door, and things are just happening.”
“Did you tell her?”
“No, because I thought Iwasready. How could I not be? I’ve wanted her forever, Jules. She’s perfect.”
“She’s not perfect. She’s a human being, just like you and me, Molls.”
“But she’s Finley. I’ve had so many fantasies about being with this woman; I’ve lost count. In every single one, I made her come, and she was so impressed that she wanted another one immediately, and she made me see actual stars. Seriously, Jules, I’ve dreamed about her actually getting me to see stars.”
“Was it not good?” Juliet asked, squinting.
The waitress then dropped off Juliet’s coffee and walked away again.
“I think itcouldhave been. I was just all in my head, so I couldn’t stop the thoughts from seeping into all the moments that should’ve been so amazing but weren’t.”
“What thoughts?” Juliet asked as she doctored her coffee.
“All the thoughts. Didn’t you have them when you and Gwen got together for the first time?”
“I think I mainly remember thinking that my girlfriend was really hot naked and that I wanted more.” Juliet tilted her head.
“You’re thinking about that now, aren’t you?”
“Always, really,” Juliet said with a laugh. “But we had sex this morning, so I’m good. Well, I’m good for now.”
“Jules, focus.”
