Page 114 of Life and Death
“Probably.”
“And Archie came from another family, like Jessamine?”
“No, and thatisa mystery. Archie doesn’t remember his human life at all. And he doesn’t know who created him. He awoke alone. Whoever made him walked away, and none of us understand why, or how, he could. If Archie hadn’t had that other sense, if he hadn’t seen Jessamine and Carine and known that he would someday become one of us, he probably would have turned into a total savage.”
There was so much to think through, so much I still wanted to ask. But just then my stomach growled. I’d been so interested, I hadn’t even noticed I was hungry. I realized now that I was starving.
“I’m sorry, I’m keeping you from dinner.”
“I’m fine, really.”
“I don’t spend a lot of time around people who eat food. I forget.”
“I want to stay with you.” It was easier to say in the darkness, knowing how my voice would betray me, my hopeless addiction to her.
“Can’t I come in?” she asked.
“Would you like to?” I couldn’t picture it, a goddess sitting in my dad’s shabby kitchen chair.
“Yes, if you don’t mind.”
I smiled. “I do not.”
I climbed out of the truck and she was already there; then she flitted ahead and disappeared. The lights turned on inside.
She met me at the door. It was so surreal to see her inside my house, framed by the boring physical details of my humdrum life. I remembered a game my mother used to play with me when I was maybe four or five.One of these things is not like the others.
“Did I leave that unlocked?” I wondered.
“No, I used the key from under the eave.”
I hadn’t thought I’d used that key in front of her. I remembered how she’d found my truck key, and shrugged.
“You’re hungry, right?” And she led the way to the kitchen, as if she’d been here a million times before. She turned on the kitchen light and then sat in the same chair I’d just tried to picture her in. The kitchen didn’t look so dingy anymore. But maybe that was because I couldn’t really look at anything but her. I stood there for a moment, trying to wrap my mind around her presence here in the middle of mundania.
“Eat something, Beau.”
I nodded and turned to scavenge. There was lasagna left over from last night. I put a square on a plate, changed my mind, and added the rest that was in the pan, then set the plate in the microwave. I washed the pan while the microwave revolved, filling the kitchen with the smell of tomatoes and oregano. My stomach growled again.
“Hmm,” she said.
“What’s that?”
“I’m going to have to do a better job in the future.”
I laughed. “What could you possibly do better than you already do?”
“Remember that you’re human. I should have, I don’t know, packed a picnic or something today.”
The microwave dinged and I pulled the plate out, then set it down quickly when it burned my hand.
“Don’t worry about it.”
I found a fork and started eating. I wasreallyhungry. The first bite scalded my mouth, but I kept chewing.
“Does that taste good?” she asked.
I swallowed. “I’m not sure. I think I just burned my taste buds off. It tasted good yesterday.”
