Page 16 of Remedy: Love In Scrubs
“Skylar, it’s okay to allow yourself to feel. You can have a life outside of work and Coffee Bean.”
“Hey! I have you!” I replied indignantly.
“Don’t be a smart ass, little girl.”
I chuckled. He was right. I was being obnoxious on purpose.
“I hear you, daddy. This is just so new to me. At my big age of thirty-five, I’m used to having my books, you, McKenzie, and my baby Coffee Bean. Yeah, I have needs that get met, but I have never had the need to be interested in someone beyond one or two meet-ups.”
“First of all, TMI. Save that talk for McKenzie. I do not want to think about my daughter having hookups.”
“Sorry, daddy. I forgot who I was talking to for a minute. I’ve just been so out of sorts lately.”
“That’s because you’re feeling things you’ve never felt. And I want to tell you that you should follow your heart. It’s okay to give your brain a break and let your heart guide you.”
That was sound advice, but I still wasn’t sure what to do with it. I wasn’t even sure exactly what I was feeling when it came to Aries. In one breath he annoyed me off with his arrogance. Then he pissed me off, and hurt me in the next breath by not remembering me. Finally, his smoldering eyes, and bright white smile and chiseled jawline turned me the hell on. Frankly Aries caused an emotional tsunami within me, and the currents were taking over, not allowing me to catch my damn breath.
"I love you, daddy. Thanks for listening to me ramble. I don't know what to do with all these feelings, but I needed to get this all out."
"I love you too, baby girl. Now get some rest. And Skylar?"
"Yes?"
"Don't be so hard on yourself. You deserve happiness, even if it comes in the form of an arrogant doctor. Sometimes the most important things in life come when we least expect them. Don't dismiss something potentially good just because the timing isn't perfect."
I sighed, knowing he was right but still feeling overwhelmed. "What if I mess this up? What if I let my feelings cloud my judgment and I can't do my job properly?"
"Skylar Wise, you are one of the most capable, intelligent women I know. You've never let anything stop you from excelling at whatever you put your mind to. Trust yourself."
“Thanks again, daddy. Now go rest your muscles. Don’t forget recovery at your age is important.” I hung up the phone laughing before he had the chance to curse me the hell out.
After hanging up with my dad, I felt better—still hungry, but better. Maybe he was right… I was being too hard on myself and too rigid in my thinking. But the idea of letting my guard down, especially with someone like Aries, terrified me. What had me questioning things even more was the fact that I may indeed have a crush on Aries, but it could be one-sided, and I had my stomach in knots over nothing.
Nope! We’re getting off the fucking carousel.
I dropped that thought before it had a chance to take root and dragged myself to the kitchen to grab something quick to eat before bed. As I stood at the counter eating leftover Chinese takeout straight from the container, my phone buzzed again.
My heart did a little skip when I saw Aries's name on the display. Was this the sign I was looking for? I unlocked my screen and pulled up his message.
Dr. Arrogant:Before I confirm my O.R. schedule for tomorrow, can I assume because tomorrow is a Saturday that there will be no abrupt changes to my schedule? The legal offices are closed on weekends, right?
Asshole!Even though that was the thought going through my head, I couldn’t contain the smile on my face.
Me:Attorneys work all year round, day and night. Unlike surgeons, we can do our job anywhere. We’re not relegated to specific rooms to succeed.
Dr. Arrogant:So, you want me to start cutting people open on the side of the road? I can turn this shit into some Grey’s Anatomy shit if you want.
I let out a loud laugh.
Me:Please don’t. You’re keeping me busy enough. Please don’t rope me up in anymore of your surgical shenanigans.
Dr. Arrogant:Maybe not surgical things, but I wouldn’t mind roping you up into other things.
Oh, my!I thought. Well, his response was a possible answer to my earlier thought of him possibly not even being into me. But he was a smart ass at heart, so he could very well just be fucking with me,
Me:I don’t think ropes are my thing.
Dr. Arrogant:Have you tried it? If you haven’t don’t knock it until you try it.
