Page 62 of Run Omega Run
But it was Dante who captured my attention as consciousness returned more fully. He stood slightly apart from the group, his face pale in the orange glow cast by our burning home, his marshmallow scent sharp with growing alarm as he checked over the children with increasing desperation.
"Where's Loubie Lou gone?" he called out, his voice cutting through the crackle of flames and the distant sound of approaching sirens. "Has anyone seen Loubie Lou?"
The question hit me like a physical blow, and all color drained from my body. I tried to struggle out of Angus's arms, but his grip tightened protectively, holding me steady while my eyes swept the assembled children with growing panic.
She wasn't there. The smallest member of our family, the one who'd been sitting cross-legged on the rug with her precious bunny just minutes earlier, was nowhere to be seen among the soot-streaked faces staring back at us with wide, frightened eyes.
"The bunny," Tomas whispered, his small voice barely audible above the roar of flames consuming our home. "She said she forgot the bunny."
Before anyone could react, a small figure cried out for her Bunny, her nightgown billowing as she ran into the burningbuilding with the kind of single-minded determination that made rational thought impossible.
"Bunny!" she wailed, her voice raw with the particular agony that came from losing something beloved. "My bunny!"
The sight of her small form disappearing into the smoke sent horror through me so complete it made the head injury seem insignificant by comparison. "No!" I screamed, struggling against Angus's arms with strength I didn't know I possessed. "Loubie Lou!"
But Dante was already moving.
Without hesitation, without the careful planning that characterized his usual approach to challenges, he sprinted after her with speed that turned his solid form into a blur of motion. His silhouette was swallowed by the smoke as he disappeared through the doorway that had become a mouth breathing fire, which was consuming everything we'd built together.
The seconds that followed felt like hours. I could hear nothing but the roar of flames and the pounding of my own heart, could see nothing but the doorway that had swallowed two members of our family with apparent finality. Around me, the other children pressed closer together, their faces reflecting the same terror that was eating me alive from within.
Then, through the smoke and heat that seemed to be consuming the world, Dante emerged.
He was coughing violently, his clothes singed and his hair disheveled, but clutched against his chest were both Loubie Lou and her precious stuffed bunny. The little girl's face was buried against his shoulder, her small form shaking with sobs of relief and residual fear, but she was breathing, moving, alive.
"Got them," he gasped, falling to his knees on the grass as Cole immediately took Loubie Lou to check for smoke inhalation. "She was right by the stairs, couldn't see through the smoke. Found the bunny on the floor where she'd dropped it."
Relief flooded through me so completely. Everyone was safe. Everyone was accounted for. Whatever else we'd lost tonight, we hadn't lost each other.
The relief that had flooded through me at seeing everyone safe lasted only moments before reality crashed back with devastating force. As my head cleared, I became fully aware of what was happening around us... not just the rescue we'd miraculously achieved, but the scope of destruction that was consuming everything we'd built.
Our home was dying before our eyes.
The windows on the first floor began exploding outward in sequence, each one sending shards of glass across the yard like deadly confetti. The heat had become so intense that the very air seemed to shimmer with waves that distorted everything beyond the flames, turning our home into something alien and terrifying.
Behind the broken windows, I could see the fire spreading with a hunger that spoke of something far beyond accidental ignition. Flames licked up the walls with precision. The new front door that Bennett had hung with such pride hung askew on twisted hinges, its solid wood blackened and cracking under an assault that seemed almost personal in its thoroughness.
But it was the second-floor windows that made my blood freeze in my veins. Mom's bedroom faced the front yard, and through the glass that hadn't yet shattered, I could see orange light beginning to flicker against the ceiling where she normally lay helpless in medicated sleep.
My gaze flickered from the windows, to the yard and back again, where was Mom? I thought.
Then realization hit me, and I choked back a cry. In the chaos of evacuation, in the desperate scramble to save the children, in the relief of everyone making it safely outside, I'd forgotten the one person who couldn't save herself.
"Mom," I whispered, then louder, my voice cracking with horror. "Mom! She's still in there!"
I struggled against Angus's arms with renewed desperation. "Let me go! I have to get to her!"
His grip tightened protectively, his massive hands gentle but immovable as he held me against his chest. "No, lass, it was impossible tae reach her, I tried," he rumbled, his Scottish accent thick with emotion. "And Ye can barely stand. I won't be losin' ye both."
"Mom!" I screamed toward the burning building, my voice raw with sorrow that seemed to tear from the deepest part of me. The sound carried across the yard, mixing with the roar of flames and the cries of the children.
Bennett was already moving before I finished screaming, determined to fight his way inside. But the wall of heat that met him at the doorway was like running into a physical barrier. The flames had spread too quickly, consuming too much, turning our entrance into a mouth breathing fire that would kill anyone foolish enough to challenge it. He made it three steps inside before the super-heated air drove him back, coughing violently, his clothes singed and his face reddened from exposure to temperatures that would have killed him in minutes.
"It's too late," Cole said quietly, his hand settling on Bennett's shoulder with the kind of restraint that came from someone who understood the likelihood of survival.
The words hit me like a shotgun, each syllable striking with devastating consequences. Too late. The phrase echoed in my skull with the finality of doors slamming shut, of chances lost forever, of love that would never again find expression in shared moments or whispered conversations or hands held in darkness.
And I broke down completely.
