Page 38 of Every Sunset
“Tell me what you want, Anna,” he whispered as he leaned in so close I felt his breath fan over my right cheek.
“I shouldn’t,” I floundered as panic started to return. This, this desire and want was what had led to…to everything that went wrong. Me being selfish almost cost Max and I everything.
“You should. I know you’re scared, but I would never hurt you, and neither would Maddox. You know that deep down,” he told me gently. He placed his hand on my shoulder and softly traced his fingers down my arm, causing me to shiver at such a gentletouch. More. I wanted more of that. I wanted to feel loved like a woman for once. I had been a mom for so long, but had I ever truly just been me? Had I ever had the chance to just be adult Anna. I’d gone from being a kid who barely made it in life, to being a struggling mom. Just for once I desired to take what I wanted and not feel bad about it.
Before I could think anymore into it, I pushed forward and wrapped my arms around Logan’s neck, smashing my lips against his as I clung to him tight enough to shuffle up his body and wrap my legs around his waist. It wasn’t me in that moment. I wasn’t forwards or brave, but Logan was right. Somewhere deep inside I knew he wouldn’t hurt me, and I couldn’t fight my feelings anymore.
Logan wrapped his arms around me, one cradling my ass to hold me up while the other wrapped tightly around me. He took control of the kiss fast, his tongue finding mine and locking us in a fire filled, passionate kiss that I didn’t even know existed outside of fiction. I’d kissed before of course, but they all paled to nothing in comparison to that moment with Logan.
Every nerve ending in my body came to life, filling me with energy that shot straight to my core, and I found myself writhing against Logan’s body, in search of so much more than he was offering right then.
“Logan,” I squeaked, not even thinking of the fact we weren’t alone in the room. I needed more. I felt like I’d lose my mind if he didn’t touch me.
“Sshh, sweetheart. We gotta keep quiet,” he whispered as he moved his lips to my ear, then he was kissing me there, nibbling the skin down to my neck, then returning up the same path withsoft kisses. “You want more, Anna?” he asked in that breathy whisper that only heightened my desire.
“Yes, please. God, yes!” I gasped desperately.
“Lower your legs for me then. Keep your arms around my neck,” he instructed and I instantly complied, even more needy for him at his gentle command.
He slid his hand under the edge of my swimsuit at my thigh, and I gasped as that fire within me burned blindingly bright at simply the touch of his huge hand so close to my center.. I gasped as he used his hand to cup me then squeaked with need when he simply held there for way too long for my liking.
“So eager, sweet girl,” he uttered against my ear, then he was kissing down my neck again.
“Please Logan!” I breathed. His lips found mine and he kissed me slowly and gently as he finally moved his hand, his wide fingers strumming over my clit exactly the way I needed him to. He barely even had to apply any pressure to set off the climax of my life. It had been so long, and I had been so worked up by the time he touched me. He smothered my gentle cries of release with his kisses as I clung to him desperately, afraid to let him go as my body convulsed with an orgasm unlike any I had ever experienced.
I don’t remember when we stopped kissing, but as I came down from the high and back to reality I found my face pressed against his neck, my head resting on his shoulder as he continued to hold me, both of his arms wrapped back around me.
“Okay, sweetheart?” he asked gently as he started to rub his hand up and down my back.
“Yeah,” I sighed happily, then it hit me wht we’d just done, and worse- where we’d done it. Cat was laid down just feet from us, and her husband and Maddox were close by. What if they’d have walked in?
I sat up and looked around the pool with panic, but Cat was still out cold and the others were no where in sight.
“No one saw us,” he chuckled as he pulled me close again and pressed a hand on the back of my head until I settled back to the way we were, with my head on his shoulder. “Are you sure you’re alright?” he asked again.
“I’m sure,” I whispered. I lifted my head and kissed him chastely. “I just can’t believe I did that here. I’m not….I mean, I wouldn’t usually….not so publicly,” I stuttered nervously. I really wasn’t sure what I was supposed to say now. I was used to the handful of guys I had slept with taking what they wanted and usually walking away right after. That had been the first orgasm I ever even had that wasn’t by my own hand. Not that I was about to admit that.
“Sshh, it’s okay. Like I said, no one saw us.”
“I should go home. I must look a real mess now,” I laughed awkwardly.
“You look just as beautiful as you did when you came for me so perfectly,” he smiled as he smoothed some loose strands of my wet hair behind my ear. “You’re gorgeous, Anna, and so fucking sexy.”
“You can’t say that,” I gasped as I glanced over to Cat again, relieved she was still out.
“Why not, it’s true?” I couldn’t hold my smile in as he just watched me, waiting for my argument. But I didn’t want toargue. I had never been called beautiful, gorgeous, or sexy in my life, and even though I thought he exaggerated, I liked the way he made me feel.
“Anna?” I startled from the bubble Logan had me wrapped in and looked up startled to see Madd walking into the pool room. I tried to move away from Logan, but he wasn’t letting me go.
“What’s wrong?” I asked when I saw the tight set of his jaw. He had his cell in his hand which worried me more. Max. It had to be Max.
“Max called. I have to go and pick him up. A fight kicked off at the party,” Madd told me.
Oh God. I pushed away from Logan and backed away as nausea rose in my stomach. I’d done it again. I’d been mixed up in my own selfish needs, and I’d let my son down again!
“Is he hurt? Is he okay?” I gasped as I tried to run through the water over to the ladder to climb out. I lost my footing almost instantly and would have crashed into the water if Logan hadn’t been there to grab me, fast as lightning.
“Easy, sweetheart. Let me help you out, okay?” Logan soothed.
