Page 46 of A Curse On Black Lake
I turn Sunny, and he waves me back to him. Heeling Sunny into a gallop, we meet up with him again.
“What do you think?” I ask.
“I think it needs another week, and then we can move my bigger group here.”
“Sounds good.”
I’ve been thinking about how I’m going to explain to Killian that I don’t have a mental condition. But there are literal Spirits in my head that talk to me and know things that I wouldn’t otherwise know. Anyone would think I’m crazy, and I can’t blame them either.
He will understand. His father told him of things to come.
I gasp, and Killian’s head whips to me.
“What?” he asks.
“Nothing,” I squeak and take my cowboy hat off and shake out my hair. He stares at me with serious, dark eyes, and part of me wants to bare every single secret I’ve ever kept. Killian makes me feel safe, and I haven’t felt truly safe since Grams died.
After everything I’ve seen and have been told. Part of me knows I won’t be safe unless I’m with Killian. Yet I won’t say it because I can take care of myself. I guess I’m stubborn.
Just because you can take care of yourself doesn’t mean you have to.They say.
Can y’all butt out of my thoughts?
Well, you spoke them to us. I don’t know what you expect us to do.
Shut up maybe?
You are rude, aren’t you?
Takes one to know… many, I guess.
Tell him, Eliana, he cannot be what he needs to if you do not open up.
“Are you okay over there?” Killian asks.
“Yup,” I mutter shortly, and put my hat back on, but the way he’s looking at me tells me he doesn't believe it.
Fair enough, I don’t either.
“Let’s head back. I need to get some hay restocked in the barn,” he says, and gets on Daisy.
When we get back to the barns, we unsaddle the horses, and I follow Killian to hay storage. “You don’t have to help me. I can get it,” he says.
My feet pause, and I don’t presume it’s because he doesn’t think I can handle my own. It feels like he’s asking for some space.
“No problem.”
He nods and walks out of sight.
You are going to lose him. He knows there are things you aren’t telling him.
“I love how y’all keep making me repeat myself. He’s not like Grams. Most people aren’t. He won’t take it at face value.”
Then we will have to prove ourselves to him.
“Why do you want him to understand so badly?”
He cannot do what he needs to if he does not understand the gravity.
