Page 104 of Head Over Feels
FelixandIsat on the couch, leaning into each other withMariposastretched out across our laps.
“Weshould go to bed,”Felixsaid.
Igrunted.
“Youneed to lie down.Iknow you overdid it on your leg.”
Iput my forehead on his shoulder, soaking in his warmth.
Fosterhad brought us home around midnight, andIhadn’t been able to stop touchingFelixjust to make sure he was okay.Atthe police station we’d been separated to give our statements, andCarloshad come close to losing his patience with me more than once because of how fidgety and crankyI’dbeen.
Craig, bless him, had swung by the house to pick up my crutches and brought them to the police station.He’dalso ordered pizza for everyone, which was damn nice of him given how many ofFelix’sex-dates he’d had to feed.
Xavierhad been on the phone toTrent’slawyer as soon asShawnhad let the rest of the guys go.Fostersaid he expected the charges againstTrentwould be dropped and he’d be released tomorrow.Today.Whatever.
I’dmessagedBriannot to expect me at work in the morning.Felixdidn’t want to take the day off though.Hewas scheduled to be out at the ranch in the afternoon, and he saidIshould go with him and use the hot tub.Hedidn’t want to be separated from me either.
ButnowFelixneeded to sleep.
“Okay.”Isat up andFelixhelped me liftMariposaand put her on the floor.IfollowedFelixto the bedroom and into the bathroom.
Felixran the shower, and we got in together.Withouteven talking about it, neither of us made any moves toward sex.Itmight be a completely different story in the morning, but for now we were both exhausted and numb.Wewashed off the fear sweat and just the general awfulness of what we’d been through.Iwas sure my subconscious would have a lot to say about tonight, but for now,Felixscrubbing my body was allIcould focus on.
Weclimbed into bed.Felixturned off the light on his side, butIsaid, “Canyou sleep ifIleave my light on?Iwant to read for a while.”
Felixsat up and reached for me. “Malcolm, you need to rest.”Heran his hand over my cheek, andInuzzled my face into his palm. “Doyou feel like you can’t sleep?Areyou too wound up still?”
Ilooked into his beautiful gray eyes, so full of concern.Bevulnerable, theLisain my head reminded me.
“I’mpretty sureI’mgoing to have a nightmare tonight.”
Felixnodded. “Gotit.Thanksfor telling me.Soyou don’twantto sleep?”
Ishrugged one shoulder. “I’llbe fine.”Eventhough my entire body was telling me to lie down and stay in bed for the next week.
Felixreached over to the nightstand on his side and grabbed his tablet.Hearranged a couple of pillows behind him and relaxed against the headboard.Hesaid, “Comehere.”Heopened up his arm and patted his chest.
Iraised an eyebrow at him, and he said, “Youdon’t have to sleep butIwant to try something.”
Igrunted but obediently snuggled into him and laid my head on his chest.He’dbeen so fucking brave tonight.Itried not to dwell on how afraidI’dbeen for him.Instead,Iconcentrated on how muchIloved the softness of his body.Cuddlingwith him was becoming one of my favorite things to do.I’dnever even considered doing something like this with any past lovers.
“Comfy?” he asked.
Iconsidered my position, then put my bad leg across his for support. “I’mgood.Whatnow?”
Myhead bobbed up and down withFelix’schest as he chuckled. “Relax.I’mgoing to read you a story.”
Ipicked my head up. “Youneed to sleep as much asIdo.”
“Iwill.ButIneed to distract myself from everything that happened today too.I’llonly read a couple of chapters,Ipromise.”
Igrunted and put my head back on his chest.Goodthing he was wearing a t-shirt so my cheek didn’t stick to his skin.Iclosed my eyes, trying to focus onFelix’sbreathing.Alittle nap wouldn’t be so bad.
Felixscrolled through his tablet, then said, “TheTentacularTalesofCaptainStarblade, byKirkLovesSpock4eva.”
Myeyes snapped open. “Holdup, is this that tentacle porn storySteveis always going on about?”
Felix’schest lifted up and down again. “Yes.Giveit a chance.Ifnothing else, you can tellSteveyou didn’t like it and watch the top of his head fly off.”
