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Hecontinued. “Iwas fine with what we did, how it was just a hookup and didn’t mean anything.Butthat’s not whatItruly want.I’mlooking for someone who wants a commitment, a relationship.”
Istood there, unable to speak.Icouldn’t find any words.Felix’sface softened and he stepped forward, putting his hand on mine where it rested on the countertop. “Don’tthinkIregret what we did.Idon’t.Ijust want more, andI’mholding out for that.”
Withoutwaiting for me to respond, he squeezed my hand and left the kitchen.
Iallowed myself a few seconds to process what he’d said beforeIgrabbed my crutch, step-hopped over to the second crutch, and went afterFelixinto the living room.Atleast he hadn’t shut himself in his bedroom.
Felixwas pointedly staring at his phone, not looking in my direction.
“So, what?AmItoo old and fucked-up to be in the running?”Isnapped.
Felixwhipped his head around to stare at me, his mouth hanging open.Igrimaced and raised one hand off the handle of the crutch. “Sorry, sorry, that came out a little harsher thanImeant it to.”Iran my hand over my beard. “CanIsit down?”Iasked, gesturing at the open spot on the couch.
“Sure,” he said softly, still staring at me with wide eyes.
Isat down and twisted my upper body soIwas facingFelix.Hisknuckles were white where he clenched his phone in his lap.
Vulnerable.LisasaidIneeded to be vulnerable.
“Look, we agreed the other night was casual.”Iwas dying to look at my unicorn photo.InsteadIsettled for resting my arm against my phone in my pocket. “IknowI’mnot anyone’s idea of a catch.”Felixstiffened like he was about to interrupt, butIplowed on. “There’smy leg, and my head’s not so great either.AndIcan be kind of a dick.”There.Felixsmiled.
“Butthe truth is,I’vebeen attracted to you since we met, and even thoughI’mprobably not what you imagined for yourself,I’minterested in more.Um, with you.”Ifloundered to a stop and held my breath.
ON THE SCREWFELICIA DISCORD SERVER
TyTyMay11, 5:27 pm
Anynews on the bombing?Ican’t find anything online exceptBentOakPDsaying “no comment”
NotMyRealNameMay11, 6:13pm
Isearched the dark web, and as far asIcan tell, no one took a hit out onFelix.Sowhoever made the bomb is the one who wants to kill him
HayNoVampsMay11, 6:16pm
@NotMyRealNameThanksso much
[that was sarcasmGIF]
CHAPTER17
FELIX
MAY
Holycrap!Wasthis actually happening?Ilooked intoMalcolm’seyes.Heappeared sincere.Ifelt… squirmy.Iwas getting everythingIwanted handed to me, butIwas so self-conscious about itIwas afraidIwas going to screw it all up.ExactlylikeI’dalmost done earlier in the kitchen.
I’dbeen proud of the wayI’dstood my ground and saidIwanted a relationship, butIhadn’t been able to get the second part out—the part about whoIwanted the relationship with.
Iforced myself not to look away—butIreally, really wanted to. “Um, okay,”Imanaged with a small smile.
Malcolmsmiled too.Heappeared relieved. “Okay?Wecan, what?Date?”
Mydisappointment must have been obvious because his expression turned concerned. “Notonly date?Youwant to be exclusive?Withme?”Hisvoice became unusually high on the last word.
Answer,Felix, he needed an answer! “Um,I’dprefer it.Ifthat’s alright with you.”Ugh, why wasIso spineless?
Malcolm’ssmile turned wry. “I’mpretty sure you’re going to regret this, butI’mgood with being exclusive.”Heput his hand over mine.Ihad to let go of my phone to link our fingers.ThenMalcolmleaned in and gave me a soft, tender kiss. “Iguess you’ve got yourself a boyfriend.”
