Page 89 of Breaking Sanity
Baron was asleep and the idiot didn’t hide his knife. Alley woke up, beyond pissed. She grabbed the knife off the nightstand, but instead of stabbing him, she snuck into his closet and shredded the majority of his clothes before he gotto her. He tossed her out of the closet and their scuffle for the knife began. She ended up slicing his forearm before he was able to get it from her. I surely thought he may kill her or worse, but he didn’t. He told her to go back to bed and stormed out. Then came back about two hours later and removed most of her shirts, leaving her with having to wear the ones she shredded.
“I can’t keep doing this,” she says, sitting on the bed staring at her hands.
“What do you mean,” Eagle asks.
“This,” she whispers, swirling her finger in the air.
“All-”
“Don’t Alley me, Shadow,” she snaps. “This is too fucking much. My head is too much right now. We both know this isn’t going to end well for me and I am only making it fucking worse! But I don’t know how to stop.”
“Baby Girl, you nee-”
“You don’t get to tell me what to fucking do Eagle! Neither of you do. I didn’t relive that night in his office for his benefit. I can’t just come out and say how I feel to either
of you without risking getting you both killed. I needed you guys to know. And I know Baron is right. It was pathetic. It was a typical girl move. You told me it was only going to be a month, and you never strayed from that. My brain got muddied with emotions and I wanted it to be more than it was ever going to be. I’ll just have to put y’all in the same category as Titus. You don’t know who that is, but we will just chalk it up to another one of my mistakes.”
She really doesn’t remember that last night in the cabin before she fell asleep in my arms.
“Baby Girl, pl-”
“I don’t want to hear it, Eagle. It was a beautiful night, well nights, and will forever be in my memory but that is what it has to be, just a memory.” She walks up to Eagle, lifts up onto her tiptoes, and kisses his cheek. “Thank you devil mask.”
“You’re welcome,” he whispers, placing his mask back on. He turns away from her to go back to his post. More than likely coming up with fifteen different ways to make her change her mind.
“Litt-”
“You don’t get to fucking speak,” she snaps. “You are done calling me that. You will never fucking touch me again. You are the guard dog who keeps me here to make sure I behave and don’t kill them. You will be nothing more.”
“First off, I am no one’s pet. Second, you don’t get to push us out, Alley.” I get in her face.
She is pushing us away, which I understand, we hurt her badly. It was stupid to engage with her knowing that it had an expiration date. I realize that now. I think I already knew, but was probably denying it. I could have told Vaughn that she sounded like a problem and possibly saved her from this, but I didn’t. I focused on the end goal instead of protecting her. I should probably walk away but there is this nagging muffled voice in my psyche that is saying not to let her go. To fight for her.
My head is a fucking mess for some reason and I am being too emotional right now. Like my whole body is in an uproar because of the war between my mind and my heart. But there is something in my head that is trying to break free, yet for the life of me, I don’t know what it is. Hell, I could be on the verge of a psychotic breakdown.
“You’ve always given me a choice, Shadow. Don’t be like them and take that from me. WALK. AWAY.”
“Alle-” I am interrupted by a loud knocking.
“Go back to your post like a good little dog.”
“This isn’t over.”
“It is.”
I make it back before the door whips open.
Chapter 18
Caine
Vaughn and I come bursting into the room. She didn’t answer the door right away, he got suspicious. Since he doesn’t trust her, he decided breaking Baron’s door for a second time was the answer. Luckily, I turned the knob before his foot went through it.
“Both of you are relieved of duty for the day. Go get some rest,” Vaughn orders.
“Yes, sir,” they answer in unison. They both bolt out as if their asses are on fire, which is strange for them considering they are the most even keeled. This must be the reason for Baron’s random ass text.
Alley stands near the bed with her arms crossed. She is truly beautiful with red-rimmed eyes, messy wet hair, and in Baron’s shirt that looks like a dress on her. She lifts her chin and glares us both down.
