Page 54 of Petals of Blue: Part One
I blink, realizing I've been staring at the side of Felix's face for however long I was lost in that memory. "Was thinking about our first kiss with Blue." Admitting that doesn't feel weird.
In many ways, Felix is still one of my best friends. While we have crossed that boundary intomore than that,we haven't done anything more than slip each other the occasional tongue in our quick kisses.
The sexual tension is off the fucking charts, but we've done our due diligence to not be alone very much this past week. I was serious when I told Felix I don't wantthisto just be about getting off.
I'm in love with him. I want more.
"I can't believe we didn't notice her escaping," Felix grumbles, still beating himself up over it.
I broke the kiss and shouted for Blue only to realize she had left and closed my bedroom door. We ran out of the room, hoping to find her, but she wasn't there. It wasn't until that afternoon, when Roman came home with Blue in tow, that we figured out what the hell she was doing at the house that morning in the first place.
As much as we wanted to pester her about the sexy as fuck kissing, she looked happy and prepared to stay. Blue is a flight risk it seems, which Jared proved not fifteen minutes later when he started asking her questions. It's as if she's comfortable being around us if we don't push.
So maybe if we’re simplyaroundher, then trust will build so she can finally open up to us. And yes, I know we can't force her to open up.That's not how vulnerability works. Roman schooled me pretty hard on that already. That doesn't mean Ican't lay some serious groundwork in the form of free coffee and big smiles for her to let her guard down. Which, I will add, is proving to be harder than I thought.
"Dec?"
I figured Violet was putting in a good word for me since I've extended my groveling to her as well, but Blue looked surprised yesterday morning when she heard about how we've been looking out for her friends this past week.
"Declan."
I'm considering buying a notebook for all my groveling ideas. Jared's sister reads a lot of betrayal and grovel books, so I've been gathering some ideas. Honestly, what some of those MMCs have done to their women...holy fucking shit.
Reading the FMC's—I think that's the right term—point of view has been absolutely painful and totally enlightening. Maybe I'll download some audio versions and have them on around the house so the others can soak it all in too.
I can't imagine even a fraction of the pain we caused Blue, but reading fictional possibilities is giving me some heartbreaking perspective.
"Declan!"
Fear shoots through my ass, making me jump and shout. "Jesus, Felix! What the hell?!"
My new lover, partner, boyfriend, complicatedsomethingglances at me with bewilderment.We haven't talked about it much. I'd venture to say we're in theexploring what this meansstage.
"I've tried to get your attention like a thousand times."
Willing my heart to chill the fuck out, I raise my eyebrows at him to lighten the mood. "Wow, are you okay? Since when are you dramatic?" Felix is a hardass, and yes, he does have ahard ass. He let me grab it on Wednesday.
"Areyouokay? I've never seen you think so hard," he fires back, flicking his blinker.
"Har, har," I mock laugh and punch his hard thigh.I wish itwere his ass. Spanking Felix is against the rules—I learned that also on Wednesday. I'm still waiting for the spanking he's been threatening me with.
He scowls and slaps my left pec. "No hitting the driver," he scolds in a throaty voice that makes my dick perk up. I flick his nipple just as he's throwing the car into park. "You're asking for a pounding."More threats.
"You won't spank me, Felix."Just keep poking...Just keep poking...
His eyes darken as he leans across the center console. "I saidpound, Declan. Your ass is asking for a pounding."
Oh...Ohhhh."Fu—" My moan is cut off as Felix grabs the front of my polo and absolutely devours my mouth.
He breaks the kiss way too fucking soon, like Blue did, and twists my nipple a little when I try to chase him for another one. "No more. We have family to visit."
Shit, fuck. "They're going to be pissed." I cringe.
"Rightfully so," Felix responds in a grave tone.
Jared's parents demanded a family dinner after his sister spilled the Blue beans.
Told them what, I don't know. But we're about to find out.
