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Holly agreed, “As long as you want to and you don’t go getting hurt…” I was surprised by their reactions, but both confessed to having one-night stands just for the sex. It seemed like I had been left behind in my sex education. I knew little to nothing about sex and relationships.
They thought it was probably better to have a fuck buddy than just random guys for fun.Saffysaid, “If he turns you on,and he’s into you, and you’re okay with each other not being exclusive, then why not?”
“I don’t see a problem with that, providing you both practice safe sex, and make sure that you’re both mature about it.” Holly looked excited. “So are you going to call him?”
Maybe it wasthe courage of the mojito I’d just had or the fact that I was way past curious about sex and wanted to know more. Or maybe it was what I thought he could do for me that made up my mind. “You know what, Holly? I think I’m curious enough to explore it.”
“Promise me one thing though if I do this?” I asked. They both look at me expectantly. “The pact is that weneverdiscuss him with anyone. No matter what… got it?”
“Agreed,”they said in unison. We knocked our glasses together to seal the deal.
“Do it now, before you talk yourself out of it, Lily,” Saffy prompted.
I scrolled in my contacts list and found ‘SEXPERT’ and pressed the call button. He answered within one ring.
“Hey,” he said, answering.
My breath hitched at the sound of his voice. “Pink Lady, do you realize how happy you’ve just made me?”
I almost forgot to speak so taken in by his seductive tone “May I take it this as a yes? Are you free later?”
My heart beganto race as I fought to sound cool. “I told you I have plans tonight, and I’m still out. I want to discuss some stuff with you though. I haven’t decided on my answer, I’ll call you when I’m alone,” I told him.
“Hurry up. Go home, you’re killing me, babe,” he muttered, then groaned into his cell. I didn’t reply and pressed the end call button and tried to appear cool, but realized I was smirking.
I maybe naïve, but I knew enough to know that there had to be some boundaries. I needed to be smart if this crazy arrangement was going to happen.
I waspetrified and thrilled in equal parts; I shouldhave been ashamed and disgusted, but instead I was full of lust, intrigue, and excitement.
My behavior was so out of character that I was scaring myself. I’d gone from the virgin that I was a little over a week ago to entering a very detached sexual relationship. More than that, this would only be my second partner, and right now I didn’t even care.
Chapter Five
STRETCHING LIMITS
When I arrived home, I rang Alfie from the safety of my apartment bedroom. “Hi, gorgeous, well, I’m glad you rang back.” The tone of his voice sounded gravelly and seductive.
“Hey,” I responded shyly, my voice getting stuck in my throat. I didn’t know what else to say. I hadn’t really thought this part through, so I almost got cold feet and hung up. My heart was pounding wildly in my chest.
Alfie tookthe lead, “Give me your address, and I’ll come over.” My heartbeat kicked up yet another gear and it felt like it was bursting out of my chest.Too soon!I fought my nerves.
“Whoa,”I insisted, stopping him before he started dictating terms. “I think we may have a few things to hash out before we get down to… sheesh… anything.” I didn’t know what to call it and giggled. I heard him snicker sexily as I huffed.Damn this isn’t easy.
“Is this an equal relationship or a dictatorship? What I mean is, dowecall the shots or is it only you who does that?” I said playfully.
“Equalall the way, babe, tell me what you want,” he replied, and Isensed a smile in his voice. It made me tingle, the way he said it, and there was a sudden rush of wetness between my legs. Just talking about this was arousing me.
Findingmy courage again, I spoke. “Okay, we need a few rules. I need to know what I’m getting into.”
Alfie waited and when I didn’t say anything else he prompted me. “Hmm, okay… shoot.” His voice sounded relaxed.
“First, we’ve establishedthat it is equal, so that means it isn’t only me at your beck and call. My needs are to be considered as important as yours. I may want tocall you for this too.” I placed my hand over my mouth because I couldn’t believe what I’d just said.
“Dang, that’s an excellent idea, honey.” Alfie agreed, enthusiastically. Of course he did, I had just confirmed that I wanted him.
He encouragedme to continue, and I thought most guys would have done the same with the prospect of getting into a woman’s panties. “Go on,” he coaxed.
Calmer, I said confidently, “Safe sex practices, and regular checks for both of us.”
