Page 62 of Where the Dark Knelt
Trying to lookconfident and unaffected by what he’d just done to me, I replied, “Nothing really, I mean, there is nothing hard that I can’t handle. If something is perceived to be hard, I usually deal with it by breaking it down into bite-sized chunks,” I responded deadpan.
Grinningwidely at my response, he held up his beer bottle saluting me, as if I’d won that round. I was instantly annoyed by how turned on I was, just by looking at his adorable, smiling face.
About to place his beer on the counter, Alfie turned his head sideways to look at me. He lifted the bottle again in a second salute before flinging his head back to take a big swig of his beer.
Alfie smiled into his bottle again, holding it to his lips, while his eyes continued to bore into mine. I could hear his breath as air escaped his nose onto the bottle neck as he breathed raggedly.
Saffydecided she wanted to be under Will, literally. He must have been in agreement, because he suddenly wanted to leave too, and ushered us both in the direction of the front door.
Alfie positioned himself in front of the door as I was walking out. Everyone else was either in the process of leaving or standing on the sidewalk getting into cars when he placed his hand on the small ofmy back. He slipped it under my T-shirt and traced the waistline of my jeans. My breath hitched, and I tried to move away without being obvious. Hisother hand slid down around to my crotch and between my legs, the seam digging into me.My sensitive flesh became swollen and ached for him to do more. I stifled a moan.
Pretending he was scratching his nose he inhaled and leaned in. “Your arousal smells awesome,” he whispered in a low, sexy voice.
I managed to school my face because Alfie was taking liberties, but I was determined not to make a scene. I gripped his hand and pulled it away, pushing it down before anyone saw it.
Putting his mouth to my ear, Alfie’s breathing was a little ragged. To the others it would have looked like he was being friendly. “You still want me, don’t you? Say it and I’m yours… anytime,” he whispered seductively.
“Thanks again, Alfie… goodnight,” I said, firmly. I don’t remember much about getting to Will’s car, just that I’d flicked onto autopilot to get there. Once seated, I fought to keep my breath even. My senses had gone into overdrive.
Will glanced over at me. “You’re quiet tonight, Lily, everything okay?” I sighed. “Yeah, it’s been a long day, Will, I’m just tired.” He nodded and let me continue in silence, while he andSaffydebated whether he’d stay at our place or go home. Once I was home, and closing my bedroom door, my cell buzzed.
SEXPERT: You felt so good in my hands tonight and you smelled so fucking amazing… I wanted nothing more than your legs wrapped around my waist.
Pink Lady: I don’t want you to touch me. If you do that again, I will scream sexual assault.
SEXPERT: Your head might not have wanted it, but your body most definitely wanted me badly… why didn’t you call me on it? If we’d been alone, I would most definitely have taken you tonight, and you would have let me.
Pink Lady: What do you want from me?
SEXPERT: I want to ride you hard until you scream my name… but I’m a realist, we’re not FB anymore, so we’ll be friends.
Pink Lady: Hmm, I don’t think so.
SEXPERT: Sure we will. See you on campus tomorrow. BTW, Will=new FB? What does he have that I don’t? I’m interested to know.
Did he really think I was that easy? I wasn’t even going to dignify that with an answer, this was the second time he’d implied something was going on between us. I was exhausted and mentally drained from his games. I slipped out of my clothes, too tired to do anything but brush my teeth.
I slidmy legs between the cool sheets unable to comprehendfully what happened tonight. I felt numb, and I couldn’t even cry. Alfie had frustrated me with his behavior.
I had been doing well to control my feelings for him, but Alfie had turned upthe heat again with his games, and it was leaving me feeling scared that I’d cave in to his demands again.
I was determined not to allow him to pull me back into something I wasn’t able to handle. So turning over, I curled myself up and spent my night once again lying, thinking about the one thing that I’d never have with him.
Arriving on campusthe next morning, I was still mulling over what had happened last night. As usual, Will was waiting for me with a serious expression on his face. He stared up at the stormy sky. I assumed he’d had another argument withSaffy.
Saffy wanted to have more control over their relationship, but Will was standing his ground. “Hey, Will. You okay?” He gave me a small smile, but it didn’t quite reach his eyes.
“I’m all the better for seeing your sweet face. I had to drag my ass away fromSaffy’swhining this morning. I’m into her, but not her clingy ways.” I leaned up and rubbed his shoulder. He bent forward, giving me an affectionate little head bump, and left it to rest there for a moment with his eyes closed.
As usual, with Will’s PDA, Alfie seemed to appear out of nowhere. I immediately felt guilty, although I didn’t know why. I thought it might be because he saw me being affectionate with Will, which backed up his insinuations of him being my new FB.
Alfie’s texts last night hadn’t helped the feelings I had about my relationship with Will. I settled for thinking that it was because I didn’t want Will to become embroiled in Alfie’s tangled mind. I wasn’t sure of the real reason, but I just felt weird.
“Hey,” he said, looking up at the sky. “We’re going to have a storm today.”
I felt my eyes narrow as I wondered what his game plan was. Alfie’s eyes flicked between us. He scowled, his eyes shifting between us darkly. “So what’s the deal, Will? You and Lily got it going on?” he said, pointing his index finger and moving it back and forth between us.
Will looked at me, then at Alfie. “Hell no, we’re the best of friends.” He looked awkwardly at me. “I’m withSaffy.” Alfie’s face showed a sudden realization to this fact and his shoulders sagged in what looked like relief.
