Page 76 of Where the Dark Knelt
Walking over to Will, I put my hand up inside his T-shirt, like it was an act of affection. Will shivered and grinned at me. I didn’t expect what came next. Will’s hand cupped my chin and he kissed me hard. It wasn’t a lingering kiss, but I noticed he got an instant erection. I tried to hide my snicker when I saw him readjust his pants.
Our act was working, I could see through Leanne. She hadn’t become emotional or angry or displayed any emotions that I would expect from someone who was having her ex-boyfriend’s baby, and who was scared to be out there on her own with the responsibility. Leanne wanted Will. She had wanted to control him, and this was her way of doing it.
“Will, can I speak with you alone?” Leanne mumbled quietly. Will’s eyes flicked to mine with aWTFlook, but I felt confident that he could continue with our act on his own. “I’ll be in the car. Nice to meet you Leanne, no doubt we’ll be seeing a lot of each other in the future.” I smiled sweetly and went to sit in the car.
Will came out of the house about ten minutes later, grinning. He glided into the seat in one smooth action. “Drive.” I took off down the street and as we rounded the corner, he said. “Can you stop the car for a minute?”
Pulling over, I turned to see the delight and relief in Will’s eyes. “You need to excuse me for what I am about to do.” I frowned, puzzled at what he meant to do. Will took my head in his hands and kissed me passionately. I hesitated for a second then found myself kissing him back.
My head wasswimming. Will broke away and stared at me. “That’s for giving me my life back.” I was flushed and more than a little breathless.
“Anything else I can do for you?” I asked, raising an eyebrow. We both started laughing. Will stamped his feet on the floor of the car with excitement, mimicking me from the last time we were excited. He was relieved after this close call.
Apparently, Leanne had told Will that she was only nine weeks pregnant, and it wasn’t his. It was his friend’s baby.Will was hurt his friend had made a play for her as soon as they had broken up but was glad to be out of the situation.
We had forced Leanne to be honest by pretending that, although Will would meet his responsibilities, they would be to his child, not to her.Our performance had encouraged Leanne to come clean. I could see the relief on Will’s face and felt so happy that he had confided in me.
There was still the awkward subject of the two kisses in half an hour to deal with, both instigated by Will. I had to admit I was turned on a little with the unexpectedness of it.
I took Will back to college to collect his car.“We need to talk.”
He looked embarrassed. “Yeah, I thought about my bad attitude toward you all the way home.” He looked sadly at me.
“What do you mean, your bad attitude, Will?” I glanced at him and he lowered his gaze.
“I have to say I was a little curious, since you told me that stuff about Alfie.” I didn’t know what to say to Will at that, so I sighed.
“Look, Will… you’re very emotional right now, hell I am too with Alfie. It makes us do crazy things. I’m not pissed that you kissed me, actually, I think I kissed you back.” I giggled. “We were caught up in a moment. We both love Saffy though, and you need to get back on track with that.” Will just nodded.
Once we’d cleared the air, I mentioned Alfie’s offer to watch his band.
“Sorry, I’d have loved to do that with you, butSaffyhas an event this evening at her campus, and I kind of promised to support her with that.”
I smiled. “It’s fine, I will probably skip this time too, and we’ll do something next time he asks.”
Driving away, I felt goodthat Will’s future was secure again, but he’d kissed me twice, and we’d just have to get past that with time.
Nearing the exit tojoin the main road from the campus, I noticed Alfie, his arms around the petite blonde that had been watching him on campus the day he ignored me.
Her arms were wrapped around his waist in return, his face was bent close to hers, and they seemed wrapped up in each other, talking intimately.
Instantly, I felt my heart ache as it dawned on me that he could already be in an emotional relationship, maybe one that didn’t fully satisfy his sexual needs, hence needing someone like me.
The subsequent drive home was painful. I sat numb,tears streaming down my face again. I felt stupid. I saw more than one driver do a double take and figured my face had gone its usual blotchy mess.
I was miserable and more than a little angry at myself, for allowing myself to get tangled up with him again.The mixed messages he sent out were incredible, no emotions, but comfort?I was so confused by all these strange concepts he seemed to have.
On reflection, no matter how many times I had seen Alfie with women, I’d never seen him fully embrace any girl like he was holding her. Yet, with her, they seemed so natural. There was an air of contentment about the way he held her. I didn’t reach my apartment before my cell buzzed.
SEXPERT: All set for tonight?
I sat staring at it.Was I? How could he do this to her, to me?
Pink Lady: Actually, I’ve changed my mind, I’m tired, early night,havefun.
SEXPERT: Where are you?
Pink Lady: In bed.
