Page 19 of Dirty Little Virgin
I close my computer, not feeling up to having a conversation with him right now. In my state, he’d have me reneging on my decision to leave him alone.
I can still write my books. Sure, they won’t have the depth of what they could if I had first-hand knowledge of BDSM, but that’s okay. Hell, the author of those books that went to film didn’t have any first-hand knowledge either, and look how far she got.
No, I’ll be okay without that. I’ll be better off never knowing Pierce Langford in person. I’m sure of that!
Pierce
Ican’t believe my eyes as I read what Jade sent me after watching the video of our scene. It had the opposite effect on her!
I can see she’s gone offline and it infuriates me for a moment, until I realize that I have her phone number. Picking up my cell, I call her obstinate ass. It rings and rings, then I hear her voice.
“Pierce?”
“Jade,” I say, then sigh as I’m relieved she picked up. “Baby, it’s so good to hear your voice. It’s just as sweet as I dreamed it’d be.”
“Pierce, I can’t …”
I cut her off. “Please, Jade. Don’t make hasty decisions. That scene won’t be done right away. You and I will make love first. We’ll get to know one another and do normal things when we first get together. I promise you that.”
Her warm voice is laced with curiosity as she asks, “Was that really you?”
“It was,” I answer her, and run my hand through my hair. She has me on pins and needles. It’s got me pacing as I talk to her. “Jade, you can trust me. I will never do anything you don’t want me to. I will never push you past anything you aren’t ready for. You and I will discuss everything in explicit detail. Nothing will come as a shock to you. Please, Jade. I’ve never felt such urgency for anyone. Not ever!”
“Perhaps that’s only because I’m not jumping up and down to do what you want.”
“Perhaps you’re right. I have no idea. I only know that you’ve consumed my thoughts for the last two days and my dreams last night. I look forward to sleep tonight since I’ll find you there.”
“Pierce, how can I know I’ll be safe with you?”
“Jade, you’ll have your cell with you. If I do something to hurt you or make you afraid of me, then you can simply dial 911, and the police will find us and put me away.”
“I’m still unsure if this is something my parents would approve of,” she says, sending a flash of anger through me.
“Are you twelve? Do you think you have to let them in on every little detail of your life? Do you honestly believe that they would let you in on their sexual escapades? Be a grown up; trust your intuition. You’re talking to me. You must have more than a bit of curiosity about what I could do for you.”
“I do have that,” she confesses. “But I have a ton of fear too.”
“Have you never done something you were afraid of?” I ask her, knowing full well we all do things we’re afraid of.
“Of course I have. But this is my body I’m putting on the line. That and my sanity. I was mentally involved in that video you sent me. I put myself in the woman’s place …”
I interrupt her, “As you should have. I meant for you to get into it and out of your own head. And you did. You never heard her cry out for me to leave her alone, did you?”
“No, she quite liked it,” she agrees.
“She did. And she asked me afterward if I ever thought I’d like to go further.”
I hear a gasp. Then Jade asks, “So you’ll be seeing her again?”
“Is that jealousy that I hear quivering in your voice? Because one who cares nothing for another person has no jealousy. Your tone tells me more than your words ever could.”
“Well, you are asking me to come spend a couple of months with you exclusively, are you not?”
“I am.”
“Then you must expect that we might find more than mere sex that will bloom between us, Pierce. Dare I remind you that love could be found?”
“Love?” I ask, then chuckle. The poor, little naïve thing!
