Page 20 of Dirty Little Virgin
“Yes, love, Pierce. I’ve never been in love. I’ve never had sex, and I could fall in love with you. I know I could. So, in the vein of being honest, that’s what I’m more afraid of than anything else. Falling in love with a man who has walls built around his heart. For you must have them if you have sex with women you care nothing for and never have any more to do with after your encounters.”
I sit with a solid thump on my bed and think about what she’s said. She could fall in love with me, and that could hurt her. She’s right. And now I’m left with nothing.
“I need to be honest with you,” I say as I pull at a thread on the blanket covering my bed. “I’m not afraid of love. I am, however, not in the market for a girlfriend.”
“And spending a couple of months with a woman, any woman, Pierce, would be just like having a girlfriend, or a wife, for that matter. And now my wheels are spinning because I’ve found something I can do for you. I can test your limits, Pierce. I can push your commitment boundaries while you push my sexual ones.”
I’m not sure if I want that. But then a bright idea pops into my head to make sure Jade decides being my girlfriend, or worse, my wife isn’t a thing she’d want to be.
“Okay, let’s do that, then. We’ll have a 24/7 exchange of power for the matter of two months. I’ll have a contract drawn up, and you can sign it online before I send the private jet for you. You’ll bring nothing with you. As my woman, I’ll take complete care of you. And you’ll dress the way I want you to. I’ll purchase everything you’ll need.”
“So you and I will play house for the summer?” she asks.
“You and I will definitely play house, and I’ll introduce you to life with me as your husband. A list of rules will be sent to you so you can read over them and understand what I demand in a wife. Is that what you want, Jade?”
“Yes, it is. Now I feel as if I can be as useful to you as you’ll be to me.”
“Great,” I mumble as my mind whizzes with what all I’ll have her do as my ‘wife,’ and we’ll see if she falls in love or runs away once our two months is up. I’d bet on the latter!
Jade
Wearing the lavender lace dress, Pierce sent me and the soldered-soled heels that were also in the box, I sit on a comfortable leather seat in the private jet he chartered for me. As we near the state of Oregon, the butterflies I had in my stomach turn into gargoyles, nipping and scratching at my insides as they fly around, tormenting me. I’ve never been so nervous!
My parents believe I’m on a trip to an Oregon forest to meet up with a friend from high school, Jane Porter, who moved to the States shortly after graduation. The truth is, I haven’t been in contact with Jane for several years, but she was the only person I could think of who lives in America.
They were a bit worried when I told them we’d be staying a couple of months in a remote cabin, alone. Pop told me to watch out for bears and wolves. He never said anything about staying away from dangerous men, though!
I’ve talked to Pierce every day for the last week. I feel as if I truly know the man. But my nerves are acting as if I’m about to meet up with a complete stranger and head off to a desolate place where no one will hear me scream. Which I kind of am doing.
My world is about to change!
He and I discussed every little detail. He asked about birth control. I told him I’ve been on the pill for many years to help regulate my period. I asked him about sexual diseases, and he went to his physician and had a complete physical and examination. He sent me the picture of his lab work which showed he was clean, giving me peace of mind about him taking me sexually.
I’m about to lose my virginity!
That was the most important thing we discussed—how I saw myself having sex for the first time. I always thought it’d be with someone I’d fallen in love with. Pierce said we can pretend to be in love for that occasion which will happen tonight, in the cabin.
I’ve never been much into acting or pretending, but he told me, as a writer, I do have the imagination it takes to act. And he’ll make sure to be as believable as possible when he says loving words to me, to ease my distress about having sex for the first time. And with a stranger, at that!
My mind has done battle with my body the whole of last week. I know this is dangerous and something I shouldn’t have even contemplated. But my body told me that this was a once in a lifetime chance, and I’d be an idiot not to take it.
“Please fasten your seatbelts; we’ll be coming in for a landing soon,” the pilot says over the speakers.
“Damn!” I mutter as I put my seatbelt back on. I’m not ready!
My breathing is getting erratic as my body begins to shake. Wringing my hands as I look out the window at the dark night sky, I can’t imagine why I’ve accepted this invitation.
My eyes close as I envision Pierce. He’s so damned handsome. And he talks to me in such a nice way. His pressure is subtle, but it’s always present. His natural dominant nature is a thing I thought I’d hate in a person. For some reason, I find it endearing in him.
The plane begins its descent, and I grip the armrests as we go down to meet the ground where I’ll meet Pierce in the flesh for the first time. My Lord! What have I done?
The tires squeal as they hit the pavement of the runway. My heart skips a beat as I realize I’m moments away from Pierce. He said he’d meet me at the airport and take me to sign papers at The Dungeon of Decorum. My picture will be taken, and I’ll be safe under the protection of the club. An added bonus is that I’m going to have a temporary membership which pays me for the two months I’m spending with Pierce.
I’m getting sixty thousand dollars at the end of our vacation. When it’s time for me to go back to the UK then I’m to stop by the club and sign more papers, terminating my membership only if I want to. Then I’ll collect my check and be on my way. Another private jet will take me home.
It’s a daunting amount of money, and I have no idea how I’ll hide the fact I have it from my parents, but I’m excited about the financial gain just the same. It’s a pleasant perk to what I hope will be an excellent experience.
The plane stops, and the pilot comes back on the speaker, “Thank you for traveling with us, Miss Thomas. We hope you enjoy your stay in Oregon. You may exit the plane now.”
