Page 65 of Dirty Desires
My cock was ready to burst as I thrust into her fast and hard. Her pussy pulsed around me as she clung to me, screaming my name over and over until I could take no more.
I let it all go, filling her with my seed then going limp and falling onto her body, our skin slick with sweat. I could feel her heart as it pounded inside her chest.
I hadn’t known such an exchange was possible. We both left it all on the table that night. Not an ounce of shame or shyness was left in either of us. I felt like she was just as much a part of me as I was. And I was the same for her.
Moving to one side, I trailed my fingers over her stomach. I didn’t say a word, but thought to myself that one day I would see that belly nice and round, filled with my child.
My future resided inside of her. Nina Kramer was and always had been my future. The one woman for me.
And just as I thought that, my eyes began to burn. They filled with tears. Natalia filled my mind. The image burned my brain. The memory of her came on so suddenly and with an intensity that I couldn’t have foreseen.
I had thought she was my one and only, too. It had been her.
What’s happening to me?
A hand moved over my chest, then Nina’s sweet face was close enough for me to see. Her lips pressed against my forehead. “It’s going to be okay, Ashton. There’s room for both of us in your heart. You don’t have to worry.” She kissed away every last tear before she said, “The love you have for each of us is different. But you can’t have a love like ours with a person who is no longer here. She understands that, I assure you. Your love for her isn’t gone. It’s just resting in the back of your mind. You’ll never completely lose her. Don’t worry.”
Gripping her hand, I choked out a sob. “What did I do to deserve you?”
“Hush, now.” She kissed my cheek. “You and I were meant to be. Life is a crazy thing. A rollercoaster ride. And with any ride comes danger. Some make it to the end, and some don’t. That’s just the way that it is. It doesn’t mean that one is more important than another. It’s just the way life goes.”
Finally, I regained my composure. “If she’d lived, I would’ve never had this with you. I would’ve never known how great things could be.”
“That’s right.” Nina’s lips pressed against mine. “And I wouldn’t have ever known this either. I’m sorry you were a part of the accident that took Natalia’s life. I’m sorry you bear guilt over that. But I think you should know that nothing happens for no reason at all. Nothing, Ashton.”
I lay there, thinking about what I had just experienced. It was life-changing. It didn’t make much sense to me that a sexual act could be felt that deeply, like soul-shatteringly deep. But it was real. It was intense. And it was definitely meant to be.
Slipping my arm around Nina’s shoulders, I pulled her close, kissing the top of her head. “There’s no doubt in my mind that we were meant to be together, Nina. Whether it happened this way or another, it couldn’t have been a mistake.”
“I think the same thing.” She snuggled into my side. “I wonder if we’ll have an even more intense experience after we get married.” She laughed. “Listen to me. You haven’t even asked me to marry you and here I am, talking like you have. Ignore me. I’m just riding the high of our delightful bed-play.”
“One day, Nina Kramer.” I kissed the side of her head. “One day, you’ll be Nina Lange, and we will have our happily ever after. You just wait and see.”
A long sigh came out of her. “I can wait. I can do anything for you, Ashton. Anything at all.”
As I lay there, holding her close, I could swear again that the woman could read my mind. There just wasn’t any other explanation for how she always knew exactly what I needed to hear.
So, I thought one last thought before I fell asleep.
I will love you forever, Nina Kramer.
