Page 58 of All or Nothing
The door to my room flew open behind me and Joss burst in, looking frantic. “What’s wrong, I thought you had your session?!”
I turned and held my arms out to her, beckoning her closer. “I need a hug,” I told her, letting her see my tears. Joss was my mate, my partner. She could see my tears, too.
“Oh, honey…” she murmured, coming to me and wrapping her arms around me and kissing my cheek. That was when she saw Dr. Vakkas, watching us calmly on the monitor. “Oh! Um, hello. I’m Joss. Dr. Vakkas, I assume?”
The older felican female inclined her head. “It’s so good to meet you, Joss. Xollen has told me many wonderful things about you.”
My Joss blushed, her golden skin going rosy. “I’m sorry to interrupt, he just sent me a comm that said ‘help I need you now’ and I thought it was an emergency.”
“It is,” I grumbled, nuzzling my face into the side of her head. “I needed a hug very badly.” Then I pulled her into my lap and cuddled her close, breathing in her scent and basking in her warmth and her softness. “I am finishing my session like this.”
“But don’t you want your privacy, Xoll? I’m right outsi—”
“No. I want you here. I’m only talking about things that you already know, or would want you to know, since we are to be mated.”
“Xollen, you hadn’t mentioned that! Congratulations, you two!” Dr. Vakkas exclaimed, clapping her hands and smiling brightly. I may have puffed out my chest just the littlest bit with pride, for managing to convince such a beautiful and perfect person to join me as one.
“It’s still early yet, but we are hoping the process goes smoothly and we can be officially mated. Joss’s people call it a weeding.”
“Wedding,” Joss interjected. “Close though, babe.”
“But yes, it is very good and exciting that that is happening. It makes what has happened with my parents easier to bear.” I rested my chin on Joss’s shoulder.
“Certainly. There’s nothing like something beginning to make losing something else a little easier. Did you want to speak more on what you feel sad about?”
I twisted my mouth, thinking. “I am also sad that they could not be happy for me and Joss. They tried to get me to abandon her and join with Verilla instead. They had met her, seen her and talked to her, and they were so blinded by their greed that they didn’t see how wonderful she is, how perfect she is for me. It makes me realize that they do not really see people, or only see what they want to see. It must mean that they are very bitter and lonely, behind closed doors.”
Joss’s hand came up and cupped the side of my face, her cheek pressing into the top of my head. I held her tighter. She was my star, my miracle, the other half of my soul, and my parents thought I would ever be content with Verilla? They were fools.
True to my word, I finished up the last twenty minutes of my session with Joss in my lap, my arms wrapped tight around her.
“Thank you for trusting me to be present for that,” Joss said softly once it was over. She twisted to be able to look at me. “You’ve come so far in the last couple of months, you know that?” She cupped my face in both her hands, looking me in the eyes. “I’m so proud of you, Xollen. You’re doing so well.”
At her words, something melted deep in my chest. My throat got thick again, but this time I didn’t let the tears fall. This time I pulled my female in close and claimed her mouth in a searing kiss. I had learned much about kissing in the months since Joss had introduced it to me, and I tried to throw everything I’d learned at her in that moment. I stroked my tongue slowly over hers, letting her feel me, dance with me, then sped up my movements, my mouth hungry and hot against hers. She moaned, pressing closer to me, her sweet taste on my tongue and sinking into my pores.
I lifted her in my arms, taking the handful of steps in between my desk chair and the bed in a flash, and laid her down gently on her back. I crawled in until I was on top of her, balancing on my elbows as my hands wandered over her body, making her shiver and gasp into my mouth. I drank her sounds down greedily, my hands going bolder so I could wring more out of her. My palm found the peak of one of her breasts, my fingers curling around the meat of her until I was gently squeezing the whole thing in my hand, making her arch up into my touch and moan. I played with the heft of her for a moment, mesmerized at how soft and pliant this part of her was, before releasing her to rub my thumb back and forth over the hard little nipple I could feel through her clothes. She nipped at my lower lip, her breaths panting and her body trembling with her need. She’d begun grinding her pelvis into me, and I didn’t think she was aware that she was doing it.
I released her breast and turned my attention to the other one, giving it the same treatment. Soon she was whimpering beneath me, begging me to touch her more, to go to where she needed me, and how could I not, when she asked so prettily?
With one last sweeping kiss, I pulled away and began to trail kisses down her body, removing her clothes slowly and worshipping every inch of flesh that was revealed. Soon she was naked beneath me, her golden skin gleaming in the light from the window. My eyes were immediately drawn to the damp curls clinging to her sex, and because I was an impatient male I grabbed her by one thigh and spread her wide, my cock aching and tje front of my pants damp with precum at the sight of her like this.
I settled myself between her legs, nuzzling the impossibly soft skin of her inner thighs and pressing kisses there. But I could not stop myself from devouring her for long—I never could. I spread her lower lips with my fingers, breathless at the sight of all that flushed and glistening flesh, then dove in, using the textured flat of my tongue to lap at the swollen bud of her clit. She cried out immediately, so sensitized and eager for me, making my cock throb hard where it was trapped between the bed and my body. My own desire was urging me to go faster, harder, but I knew my Joss liked a slow build, so I kept my tongue firm and steady against her sopping flesh.
Her cries filled the room like the sweetest music, the trembling of her thighs on my shoulders and against my head telling me she was getting close. Now I increased my pressure, laving my tongue against her sensitive clit faster, before taking it between my lips and starting to suck her gently.
It wasn’t long before she was coming against my mouth, her thighs clamped so tight against my head that I could barely hear her screams of pleasure. I slowed my movements, gentling them, but I didn’t let up, coaxing more orgasms out of her. I released her folds and used that hand to circle the slick, throbbing entrance to her core, then sank two fingers into her sucking heat. I curled my fingers up, stroking until I felt that spongy area she called a g-spot. I kept up the pressure there, sliding my fingers over it firmly, keeping my mouth glued to her sweet pussy as she began to cry and shake at a higher intensity again.
“X-xollennnn,” she moaned, her voice hoarse from how much noise she had been making. “Fuck, baby. F-f-f-fuuuuuck.” I moved my fingers faster, the wet sounds of them plunging into her delicious and filthy, as I suckled at her clit once again.
She came again with a keening cry, her whole body arching up off the bed and pressing her pelvis harder against my mouth. I pulled back in time to stop my teeth from connecting with her delicate flesh. I slipped my fingers from her fluttering channel, the spasming muscles reluctant to let me go, then licked them clean, groaning at her flavor—I had been drinking her down this whole time, but every taste was one to be relished. I stroked up and down her quivering thighs, pressing more kisses to them, to her curl-covered mound, before sitting up and beginning to strip my own clothes off.
Joss struggled up onto her elbows, watching me undress with a gaze that was equal parts dazed and hungry. “How about you now?” she rasped, her eyes widening as my cock sprang free from my pants to bob in the air.
I loved it when Joss used her mouth on me, but as incredible as that felt it wasn’t what I wanted right now. I shook my head, kicking my pants to the floor and crawling over her so that my body was over hers again, my hips resting in the cradle of hers. “I want to be inside you too badly, my love,” I murmured into her ear, my lips trailing down the line of her throat, breathing the smell of her skin in deep. She was a feast for all my senses, my Joss.
I kissed her again, my lips a hungry press against hers, even as I reached between our bodies and guided my cockhead to her entrance. I notched myself there, my heart racing in anticipation, then sank into her in one smooth motion, making both of us groan at the sweetness of our joining. One of her legs hitched up around my waist, the heel of her foot pressing into my backside and urging me to move. I curled my tail around that foot, anchoring her to me more securely.
“So eager for me, my mate?” I asked her as I drew my hips back and pushed back into her with agonizing slowness.
