Page 27 of Making Haven
Chapter Thirteen
Devin
“Bite me.”
My stomach is leaping up to my throat, threatening to choke me as I place my wrist against Lawrence’s mouth. We’ve come so far since we first met. Back then, I’d rather toss myself off a cliff than let a vampire bite me voluntarily, yet here I am, actively asking him to bite me.
I’m scared. But there’s also a flutter of excitement inside of me. What will it feel like? How will this change our dynamic?
I hold my breath, waiting. Lawrence’s eyes are glued to my face, watching for something. I have no idea if he sees it but his mouth moves under my wrist. I’m expecting to feel the piercing pain of his fangs, but instead, his lips pucker as he kisses my wrist instead. The soft gesture only solidifies my desire to help him, to give him this one thing to help him heal, help him get his strength back.
I trust him.
That might be the most terrifying thing about this entire thing. I trust him. I’m willing to put myself out there, to be vulnerable, hoping against all hope that he won’t fuck me over with thattrust. I’ve had bad experiences with people before, but Lawrence is different.
With his eyes still locked with mine, Lawrence whispers, “are you sure, Devin?”
“Absolutely not,” I say, letting myself give Lawrence the tiniest smile. It feels weird, like my cheeks are pulling too tightly against my skin. It’s been so long since I allowed myself to smile freely. “But I want you to do it anyway.” I swallow around the lump in my throat, trying my best to keep my words steady despite the way my heart is racing. “I trust you.”
Lawrence’s eyes widen before they fall closed. I can feel the way he exhales through his nose, his breath tickling against the skin of my hand. “Okay,” he whispers against my skin. “Just so you know, this won’t change you. The process is more complicated and involves you having my blood and the two of us being reborn. This is just a feeding.”
My heart seems to leap within my chest at that, knowing what’s about to happen. My brain spins with this new information but I file it away to think about later. Right now, I want to be in this moment, experiencing this with Lawrence.
I suck in a sharp breath. Lawrence smiles and I spot his fangs. They’re just as sharp as ever, but this time when I see them, my stomach doesn’t spike with fear, instead I’m flooded with adrenaline and anticipation. I can’t seem to pull my eyes away as he opens his mouth and lays those sharp teeth against the sensitive skin of my wrist.
I bite my bottom lip, keeping a noise from passing them as Lawrence bites down. Fire surges through my veins and I can’t be sure if it’s just me or if there’s something infectious about him biting me. It hurts. He’s literally biting me, but past the pain, there’s something else, something warming in the pit of my stomach like drinking a shot of liquor.
Lawrence whimpers as he takes a long suck from my wrist, doing his best to keep the blood from his bite in his mouth rather than dripping down onto the ground. I can appreciate a vampire who wastes not.
He takes another drag, closing his eyes in bliss. The color comes back to his cheeks and he’s holding himself up stronger. I look down and see that his ankle is completely healed. I barely have time to marvel at his healing properties before Lawrence is shifting and my eyes dart back to his mouth.
I hear something ripping before he’s pulling his mouth away and replacing it with a piece of his shirt, stopping the bleeding. If I ever doubted his self-control, those worries are completely washed away. He didn’t take too much. He didn’t bleed me dry. He took only what he needed before pulling away.
Goddamnit. I think I’m in love with this asshole.
“Fuck,” Lawrence says and it comes out as more of a whimper than he probably meant it to be. He uses his thumb to dab at the sides of his mouth, tucking any last drops of blood into his mouth, then licking his thumb clean.
That shouldn’t be as hot as my body apparently finds it. My cock grows stiff despite having less blood than before. Not only am I turned on beyond belief, but I feel so much closer to Lawrence now that we’ve shared this, now that I’vefedhim.
Lawrence gives me a soft smile, his cheeks turning a beautiful pink color. I startle as I realizeholy fuck, he’s blushing because ofmyblood in my system. If the blood I’ve just given him can make him blush, does that mean he could grow hard as well? Couldmy bloodgive him a boner?
I don’t think I’ve ever needed to know something as desperately as I need the answer to that question.
“Thank you,” Lawrence starts to say but I cut him off, leaping forward and pushing my mouth against his. I sweep my tongue between his lips, ignoring the way I can taste the metallicness ofmy own blood. Somehow, that only sparks the fire inside of me more.
Is it fucked up that I’m finding this so fucking hot?
Lawrence’s arms come around me, tugging me forward until I’m straddling his waist. I don’t know what’s come over me, only that I can’t seem to get enough of him. I need him in a way I’ve never needed anyone before. I push my hips against his own, groaning against his mouth when I feel a matching hardness in his pants.
“Fuck,” I breathe out as I pull back, our lips just barely touching. “Fuck, Lawrence. I need you inside me. Please.”
Lawrence wraps his arms around me and stands up so quickly it makes my head spin. With me holding onto his front, he quickly grabs our things before taking off running towards our home, because yes, it’s our home. It’s mine just as much as it’s his.
I tuck my face against him, feeling the air rush past us as we move. My stomach swoops and I close my eyes, doing my best to cling to Lawrence as he runs. I will never get used to this sensation, never get used to the man I’ve fallen for beingmorethan human.
With my face tucked against his throat, I don’t hold myself back, peppering the skin I can reach with my mouth. I lick and nip, smiling when his hands tighten around me and a growl fills his throat, rumbling between us.
When his steps slow, I finally open my eyes, realizing we’re back in our little cul-du-sac. “Mine or yours?”
