Page 102 of Ours to Lose
Two people who belonged to each other.
Who loved each other.
“Aubrey.” A low groan escaped me as my muscles strained, my rhythm picking up. I’d have to stop soon or I’d come. But the way her hips were circling and her breath had caught told me she was on the verge herself. “Breathe, baby. Breathe into it.”
“Gabe,” she whimpered.
“I got you.” I kept up my rhythm, sliding against her clit with long, steady strokes. “Let it go. That’s it. That’s it.”
Her head flew back, eyes squeezed shut as her body convulsed as if the pleasure jumped through her like electricity. I focused on her face, memorizing the flush that stained her cheeks and the way her lips fell apart. When her muscles relaxed, I kissed her neck and behind her ear.
“Condoms are in the nightstand,” she whispered, voice shaky.
I pulled back to meet her gaze. Her eyes were shiny. “You okay to keep going?”
“Please don’t stop.”
I wouldn’t. Not until she told me to. That or we couldn’t stay awake any longer. If this was my last night with her, I would make it last as close to forever as I could.
I got up and rounded the bed, grabbing all three condoms from the nightstand. When I returned to kneel between her legs, she plucked one from my hand.
“Let me,” she said.
Her hands were steady as she opened the wrapper and placed the condom on my tip. We held each other’s gazes as she rolled it over my length, just like she had the first time we’d had sex. My cock jumped in her hand.
I’d never wanted a woman the way I wanted her. I braced myself on my right forearm and let her line me up at her entrance.
“Ready?” I breathed, brushing her hair from her forehead.
“Ready.”
I eased my hips forward, her clasp around me unreal. So warm. So wet. Her body opened for me like it was welcoming me home.
I cupped her cheek. “You’re amazing,” I whispered, wishing I could give her more. Be more. Be everything she deserved.
Tears welled in her eyes, one escaping down her cheek. I wiped it away with my thumb as my own eyes burned.
Her lips lifted into a shaky smile. “Kiss me.”
I dragged my thumb over her bottom lip as more of her tears fell. Then I held her gaze as I pressed my mouth to hers, matching the tempo of our bodies coming together in the gentlest of waves. Our stares stayed connected, mouths tangled, hips rocking, neither of us looking away as something too big to name built between us.
When her next orgasm hit, she melted into it, moaning as if taken by surprise. The way her inner muscles contracted around me and the way she breathed my name like a chant had my hips pumping faster, chasing her pleasure with my own. When it had strung me up tight enough to cut off my breath, I gave a final thrust and let go, pulsing my release into the condom, the feeling so good I thought I might die.
Her arms around me, holding me to her as she buried her face in the crook of my neck, was the first thing I registered when my thoughts came back online. The ache in my left shoulder from collapsing my weight onto it was the second.
I shifted to check on her, but her hold on me tightened. “Not yet,” she mumbled against my skin. Her voice was thick with emotion. “Just…don’t go yet.”
Letting more of my weight settle over her, I lowered my forehead to her mane of blond waves. The scent of coconut andherwashed over me, easing my muscles.
I’d stay.
Despite everything in me that wanted the best for her screaming it was wrong, if she asked me to stay, I would. If she told me it was what she wanted, what she needed, I didn’t think I would be strong enough to deny her. Not when it was what I wanted too.
But she wasn’t asking me that. She probably knew as well as I did what a terrible idea it would be.
All she was asking for was right now. One more moment of comfort in each other’s arms before returning to a sensible path.
I ignored my aching shoulder, not caring about it at the moment, though I’d need to take care of the condom soon. But for a minute, I’d savor holding her and pretending she was mine.
