Page 35 of Black Wing and Shadows
“No doubts. Just want to make sure you won’t regret fucking your best friend’s ex. I have wanted you for weeks.”
“One, I prefer you not bring that up while I am about to feast on you. Two, I don’t care about that. Neither you nor I can help our fate. Three, I have wanted this from the moment our eyes locked in the courtyard.”
He didn’t give me time to respond before he pressed his lips in between my thighs. He took a finger and drove it down one side, up the other side, and back down. Oh, fuck me. This felt so good. I didn’t think anyone had ever touched me this way. He slid one finger in gently, moving it in and out. He took his tongue, slowly moving it up and down the middle of my folds. I could barely breathe between moaning. Every time he came to the top, he did a circular movement with his tongue, wrapping it around my clit. I was on the verge of losing all control.
“Oh gods, Zane, I am about to cum, and I might be loud.” I managed to get out in between breaths and moaning.
He let out a devious little laugh. “My room has a sound shield, so let it go for me, my love. Fucking scream for me, Auri.”
Just as he demanded, I let it all out. In between loud moans, I was saying fuck. I was pretty sure stars flashed into my eyes. I felt an entire surge of electricity shoot through my body, much stronger than I had experienced in the past. My legs started shaking, and my arms were shaking. He finished dropping his pants to the ground and began kissing up my body. I was still trying to catch my breath. He stopped to lick circles around my right nipple before moving to my left.
He moved up, kissing my neck. I grabbed his face and pulled it to mine. I bit his lip before opening my mouth and letting my tongue slide into his, crashing into his. He grabbed a hold of my tongue, before he let go and pushed his tongue into my mouth. I started sucking on his tongue. He let out a growl. He reached his arm down, under my back, and slid me up the bed some before climbing onto the bed with me. He let his body down closer, and I could feel his hardness pressed against my thigh. He felt so hard and thick against me, so fucking glorious.
“I probably won’t last a long time. It has been quite a long time for me.”
“Same… oh wait, you already made me cum with ease,” I said, giving him a smirk.
He reached down and pushed himself in slow, savoring every second. Fuck I wanted all of him. He felt so fucking good. I could instantly feel more wetness flooding the area. My entire body rushed with heat. He moved in me more before pulling out. Oh, he was fucking teasing me. I was gripping his back as hard as I could, and I was nipping and gently sucking on his neck. He moved in a little more with this stroke before pulling himself almost all the way out and stroking just the tip in. He pushed himself all the way in, hitting every part of me inside. Tingles rushed throughout me. I was moaning again in between my ragged breaths. He was breathing hard, too. I could feel another orgasm climbing, and I didn’t know how much longer I could hold out.
“You’re going to… make me… cum again…” I barely made out.
He grabbed my sides and flipped us over, putting me on top of him. “I want to watch you cum all over me, my love.”
I leaned over him. He had both of his hands on my hips, gripped tight. I was riding him slow, wanting to savor every single second. We stared into each other's eyes. One of his hands moved to cup my neck pulling me in to kiss him. He slid over to nip on my neck, and I nipped his ear. He let out a deep moan, almost sending me over the edge. I pushed myself into a sitting position, and he moved his free hand to cup my breast as I rode him slow and deliberate.
We locked eyes again, I stared into his pale blue eyes as they flared in excitement. I felt the electricity shoot through me again, just as it had, and I felt myself losing control. I moaned much louder, screaming fuck in between moans. He gripped my hips with both hands, moving me faster on top. My entire body felt like it was being electrocuted, in the most pleasurable way.
He was moaning and grunting, which was further driving my orgasm much more intensely. We both let out a loud moan, his much more audible than mine. The whole room vibrated from the roar he let out. He pulled me down, our chests meeting.
I felt my entire body flush with heat, hot and burning. Every single part of my body tingled. Static electricity took over my whole body. My mind felt tingly, like I was on a cloud, euphoric. I had never felt this before. I was not wholly sure what I had just felt. It was the most glorious, pleasurable orgasm I had ever felt. My breathing was ragged and desperate. I reminded myself to slow my breathing, get it under control.
CHAPTER 14
His warmth still clung to my skin, but silence was dangerous—it left me alone with my thoughts. My heart should be slowing, steadying. Instead, it beat harder, each thud sparking a hundred questions I couldn’t turn off.
I wasn’t exactly regretting it, but gods, I couldn’t stop second-guessing myself. I’d promised I wouldn’t hand myself over so fast. Every time I’d moved this fast before, I’d paid for it—little pieces of me shaved off in quiet, invisible ways. Sex meant control when I chose it. Only control never lasted long once the quiet arrived. Guilt poured into me, but giving myself to someone was a power I struggled with.
That old scar inside me whispered it was about control. About proving no one could take from me again without my permission. If I chose it and started it, then it was mine. Mine to give. Mine to end.
It was the same pattern that had followed me for years—one more impulsive choice, one more way to stay ahead of my own ghosts. For a heartbeat, it worked. For a heartbeat, I felt powerful, untouchable.
Now the quiet pressed in, and doubt crawled beneath my skin. Was this strength, or just another desperate attempt to silence the past? Was I moving too quickly? Was I letting him take pieces of me I couldn’t afford to give?
The thoughts spun faster, chasing each other in circles until my chest tightened. I wanted to focus on the way his hand had steadied me, the way his voice had pulled me back into myself. But my brain never let me sit still—it tore at everything, tested every angle, demanded to know how this ended before I’d even caught my breath.
Maybe this time was different. Maybe he was different.
I pressed my face into his shoulder, letting the silence stretch. It was safer that way, safer than saying the questions that gnawed at me. But silence would never last with him.
“And I thought I came in here to talk,” I whispered in his ear.
“I had plans to talk, I did, I promise. Once I saw you, I let all self-control go. I guess it’s better to have fun before we talk about serious things.”
“I hadn’t wanted to move this fast either. My self-control has never been my strong suit.”
He handed me a towel and helped me clean up. I stood up to grab my clothes, but he grabbed me and pulled me back into his arms.
“Let’s cuddle while we talk. I want to feel you next to me.”
