Page 47 of Spiralling Skywards
“You’re married? Youhave a wife?”
She tried to lift herself up and out of my lap. I gripped her hips and kept her in place.
“No. Let me go.” She struggled as I held on to her.
“Sit still, le’me explain, Sarah.”
I wasn’t letting her go. Not now. Not ever. Her shoulders slumped, and she stopped struggling. I kept my palms splayed over each of her hips, brushing my thumbs gently over her soft skin. I did it to calm myself, as well as her.
“We separated two years ago, but our businesses were merged. My family owns a development company, hers owns land. Hers own mines that need engineers, we have a recruitment agency.”
I watched her wide eyes search my face and her chest rise and fall with the deep breaths she was taking.
“It was business. The business side of things will make a divorce complicated, and I put it off. It was wrong.”
I spoke quickly, trying to explain. Trying to get my point across but knowing all the while that I’d fucked things up. I should’ve been upfront. I should’ve told her sooner. I definitely shouldn’t have told her straight after making her orgasm for the second time.
“She’s not my wife, Sarah.”
She shook her head again.
“Did you marry her?”
“Yes, I married her.”
She nodded her head this time.
“Did you divorce her?” A sob escaping as she spoke. Her face crumbled as she waited for my answer. I fucking hated myself for doing that to her. I should’ve just been honest, or better still, I should’ve stayed the fuck away. But still I pled my case anyway.
“I’m divorcing her now. I’ve filed. She’s not my wife.”
“You should’ve told me, Liam. You have a wife. You should’ve told me.” She cried as she spoke.
I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her tightly against me. Her arms hung limp at her sides and she cried like she did on our first date.
“I should’ve told you. You’re right. I should’ve told you sooner, but it’s over Sarah. It’sbeenover for two years, before then even. She’s had the divorce papers for almost five weeks. I’m waiting to hear from her lawyers any day now.”
Her shoulders shook. I thought she was still crying, but she pulled back and looked at me while drawing in deep breaths.
I’d fucked up and totally underestimated her reaction to my news. I needed to make it clear to her that Olivia and I were done, our marriage over. I needed to reassure Sarah that everything that had happened between me and her was real. My head and my chest both felt like they would explode from the panic caused at the thought of losing her over this.
“You won’t go back to her?”
“No. No. It was wrong to marry her in the first place. I never loved her.” That made me sound like a complete arsehole.
“I don’t mean I never loved her, I mean . . .”
Fuck. Everything was coming out wrong.
“Le’me explain.”
“What’s her name?”
“What?”
“Your wife, what’s her name?”
I let out a long breath. I’d spiralled from cloud nine to the deepest depths of the darkest ocean in a matter of minutes.
