Page 87 of Spiralling Skywards
“I can’t be with you. I’m sorry, but everything I said last night still stands.”
“That baby’s not mine. I swear to you, that baby is not mine.”
I finally met his gaze.
“It’s not about the baby. It’s about you and me. You lied. We’ve spent nearly every night together for over month, and you waited until we slept together before telling me you were married.”
“And yet you still slept with me again. I told you I was married, and we still slept together afterwards.”
“Yeah, because I didn’t know at that stage that you’d also lied to me about the fact that you’d recently slept with your wife. You told me it had been over for two years.” I drew in deep breaths and calmed myself enough to continue without crying. “You know what hurts me more than anything? I actually thought you cared about me. We had unprotected sex, Liam. You told me I had nothing to worry about, ‘it’s been a while.’ You told me. You are so full of shit. You lied, and I’m done.”
“I did, I lied, and I’m sorry but not about that. I would never lie about something like that, Sarah. Olivia is the only person I’ve ever had unprotected sex with, but not that night. I hadn’t seen her for two years, I knew that she’d been sleeping with other men. I knew that she was still carrying on the affair with the same man that I’d caught her in bed with. I wouldn’t risk my own health like that, let alone yours.”
I stared at him. I didn’t want to speak because I knew I would cry, so I simply stared and stayed silent. He’d broken me, and I hadn’t realised just how much until that moment.
“Don’t do this, Sares. Please don’t do this.”
His bottom lip trembled.
My heart once again shattered. It had been repairing itself all day. I’d sticky taped the fractured pieces back together and then bandaged them tight, but it hadn’t been enough protection, not against him.
“We’ve got something good, Sarah, you know we do. Don’t let Olivia turning up here ruin that.”
“She didn’t, don’t you see that? You ruined it by not being honest with me.”
Shit. I’d been so determined not to cry, but traitorous tears were trekking down my cheeks. “You ruined what we had by not being honest with me, don’t you see that? Don’t you get it?”
“No. I don’t fucking get it. I’m not a liar. I’m not a bad person Sarah. I fucking love you, and I was scared. I panicked. I should have told you sooner that I was married. I fucked up. I didn’t tell you about what happened with Olivia before I left Sydney because I didn’t want you to think badly of me. I fucked my wife out of pure revenge, pay back for what she’d done to me. I didn’t want you knowing that.”
“I told you stay away.”
Great, my brother appeared around the corner leading from the hallway.
“Please don’t start fighting,” I begged through my tears.
Luke walked around the breakfast bar to stand beside me.
“You all right?” I shook my head and almost collapsed into his arms.
“Please make him go. Make him understand I need him to go.”
“Is that really what you want, Sarah? You really want us done? For me to go?”
I turned my face towards him and nodded my head, he did the same in acknowledgment.
“Okay. I’ll go. I’ll go because I love you and I hate seeing you this upset. I love you. Just remember that.”
He turned and left, my heart went with him.
