Page 50 of Protect My Heart
I don’t know how we ended up here, but we’ve gone too far to go back. He’s buried inside me, stretching me, filling me, in the most wonderful way. I’ve dreamed about this, relived that night, for months now. I haven’t been with a man since Jason because he’s all I’ve been able to think about.
‘Don’t go,’ he whispers in my ear, slowly pulling out before thrusting back inside me. ‘Stay with me tonight.’
‘I can’t. I have to—’
Jason’s lips press to mine, stopping me from telling him I have to go. I’d love to stay, but I can’t. I have too much to do, and staying with him would just bring us closer, which we both know is a bad idea.
What we’re doing now is a bad idea, but God, it feels good. He’s rocking into me in a slow, steady, intoxicating rhythm. My hips rise and fall, moving with him as I rake my fingers down his back.
‘You feel so fucking good,’ he groans. He speeds up a little, then a little more.
I suck in a breath as his hand slips between us, rubbing over my clit as he moves in and out of me.
‘Yes,’ I pant. ‘Keep going.’
I feel it building, the sensations getting stronger. I hold onto him as he thrusts harder, deeper, his body tensing up.
‘Shit,’ he mutters, like he can’t hold back a second longer. He comes, but so do I, waves of pleasure shuddering through me, reminding me of that night we shared. But this time feels even better, maybe because my sensations aren’t numbed by alcohol. Or maybe it’s because spending time with Jason and meeting his family, I feel closer to him than I did that night.
Jason pauses a moment, then gently pulls out of me.
‘I didn’t plan that,’ he says, laying back on the bed. ‘I swear.’
‘I did.’
He looks at me. ‘What?’
‘It was my fault. I lured you to the bedroom, made you kiss me, then had my way with you.’
He smiles. ‘I don’t think it happened that way.’
‘Maybe not, but I’m not sorry we did it. Are you?’
‘No. But that’s the problem. I want this, Mia. Not just the sex, but you.’ He looks up at the ceiling. ‘I don’t want you to leave. I know you have to, but I don’t want you to.’
I rest my head on his chest. ‘Let’s not talk about it. Let’s just be happy in the moment.’
We lie there for several minutes, then Jason suddenly sits up. ‘Fuck.’
‘What’s wrong?’
‘We didn’t use anything. You’re still on the pill, right?’
‘Um, yeah,’ I lie. I should tell him the truth, but I can’t. Not yet. I need to wait until after his brother’s wedding.
Jason lets out a sigh of relief. ‘Sorry, I was panicking for a minute there. I’m always lecturing the guys on the team to be safe, and here I am, forgetting to use a condom.’
‘We should get up,’ I say, wanting to get off that topic.
He turns to me. ‘Where do you want to go for dinner?’
‘We’ll have to skip it. I need to head home.’
‘It won’t take long, and you need to eat. You didn’t have lunch.’
‘I’m still full from your mom’s breakfast. And I really should start driving.’
He places his hand along the side of my face and looks in my eyes. ‘I’m not ready for you to leave.’
