Page 30 of The Lost Hours
I felt him watching me closely. “If only it were really that easy to stop. Once horses get into your blood, there’s no amount of bloodletting that will make it go away.” Without waiting for me to respond, he began walking toward the golf cart, then stopped by the passenger side until I caught up to him. He took the book and helped me sit before placing it in my lap. He didn’t speak again until we’d gone around the house and were facing the alley of oaks. They looked different at night, altered by the settling darkness. They wore the shadows like cloaks, their ancient knobs and limbs trembling slightly with impotent anger, hovering close over the alley as we began to pass through it.
A high-pitched whistle pierced the night, a lingering song whose words were lost in the black branches and Spanish moss outlined against the sky. I clutched at Tucker’s sleeve without being aware of it. “What is that?”
“It’s the oak trees,” he said, slowing the cart. “The breeze off the river at night stirs them up.” He tilted his head as if to hear it better. “They say that it started after they changed the course of the river and that when the wind blows it reminds them of the time their brothers were cut down and they shout out their grief.”
I let my hand drop. “What do you think it is?”
He watched me for a moment before he answered. “I think that when they dammed the river it changed the way the wind hits the land, which is why they started whistling after the alley was carved in half. It’s the only explanation that really works. I just can’t imagine that anything could grieve for that long.” He hit the pedal hard with his foot, causing the golf cart to jerk forward.
We didn’t speak again until we’d reached the cottage. He helped me out and walked me to the door. He said good night but hesitated. Finally, he said, “Would you at least think about it?”
I didn’t have to ask him what he was talking about any more than I had to think about why I hadn’t already told him no.
“I wouldn’t ask you to get on a horse if you didn’t want to. Just supervise the girls. And it’s only temporary since you’re leaving in a few months. It’s just . . .” He raked his hands through his hair and I remembered what he’d said in the cart.I just can’t imagine that anything could grieve for that long.
“After their mother died, I promised them that I would teach them. It’s different between us now . . . without their mother being here. I’m not sure how to go about it. But I thought if they could learn to ride . . .” His voice drifted off and he turned as if to leave. “Never mind.”
I pulled him back. “I understand,” I said, knowing more than most that this one thing in common could be what they needed. And I understood, too, that the grieving time wasn’t determined by the hours in a day but by something else I didn’t yet have a name for. But my own grieving time for the life I had once thought to have had come to an end. Like closing a casket or burying a box, I’d make it go away. Probably not forever, but hopefully long enough that I could find something else to look forward to.
“I’ll help you,” I said. “I won’t be getting back on a horse, but I can help you teach the girls to ride.”
His teeth beneath his smile showed white in the porch light. “Thank you, Earlene. Thank you.” He slapped at something on the back of his neck. “Well, there’s a lot to do then before we can get started. I’ll have their nanny, Emily, call you tomorrow to discuss their schedule. And I’ll call after I check out a few horse auctions for some ponies. We can discuss money, too, since I don’t expect you to do it for free.”
“No, please. I don’t need to be paid. I’d like to do it. I like Sara and Lucy and I think we’ll have fun together. And I think I might need this as much as they do.”
He was silent for a moment. “If you’re sure. And if you’ll let me know if you change your mind.” He slapped at his neck again. “I’d better be going before these damn mosquitoes eat me alive. Thanks again, Earlene. I really can’t thank you enough.”
“You’re welcome,” I said and watched him climb back into the golf cart. “And thank you,” I said softly as I watched him drive away, listening again for the whistling oaks, and wondering how long it would be before they realized that they had grieved enough.
CHAPTER 11
Lillian sat on the bench listening to the splash of water from the fountain in what she always considered to be Helen’s garden, her face shaded by the large brim of her straw hat. The morning sun was hot, but not yet hot enough to have evaporated the morning dew that clung to the closed marble petals of the moonflowers that dangled from the stone fountain.
She sensed the girl’s presence before she spotted her by the garden gate, hovering there as if unsure she should proceed now that she realized she wasn’t alone. Their new tenant was past girlhood, Lillian knew, but there was something so vulnerable and fragile in Earlene’s eyes, and in the way that she stood with her shoulders down, that reminded Lillian of her motherless great-granddaughters. It was as though she’d found life disappointing and had managed to retreat to the point in her life where the burdens of growing up had not yet found her.
From the corner of her eye, she saw Earlene turn from the gate as if to leave.
“Would you like to join me?” Lillian called out. She wasn’t sure why. She’d come to the garden to be alone. Maybe it was because Earlene had needed to be alone, too, and had chosen Helen’s garden. Most people would have chosen to stay in bed at this early hour, wrestling with jumbled thoughts behind closed blinds. But Earlene had sought the garden, and the fragrant blooms that Lillian had once been told by an old friend represented the hand of God on earth.
“Only if I’m not intruding.”
Lillian moved over on the bench as an invitation for Earlene to sit, then tilted back her head so her hat brim wouldn’t obscure the view. “Not at all. My gardens have always been meant for sharing.”
Lillian studied the younger woman as she approached, her limp less pronounced in the flowing calf-length skirt she wore. She was very pretty, Lillian thought, and could be prettier with more attention to cosmetics and maybe a softer hairstyle other than the low ponytail she always wore. But her skin was smooth and fine, her delicate eyebrows giving her face an almost angelic quality. It was her eyes, though, that commanded attention. They were light brown and outlined with long, dark lashes and stared out at the world like those of a wounded animal. But there was something more, too—a light that simmered beneath her defeatist attitude, but a light nevertheless. Lillian couldn’t help but compare Earlene to the damaged horses Tucker rescued, and wondered if she’d be like the ones that somehow managed to regain their spirit.
Earlene sat and Lillian continued to stare, too tempted to get a close-up view to care about politeness. The young woman seemed so familiar to her, reminding her of someone she couldn’t yet place. But maybe it was that familiarity that had made Lillian pat the seat next to her, to want to share this corner of her garden with a stranger.
Earlene gave her a tentative smile. “When I left the house last night, I smelled the garden and Tucker invited me to come see it in the daylight. I don’t think I’ve ever smelled anything quite like it, except maybe for the garden at my house in Savannah. I recognized the gardenias. And the moonflowers.”
Earlene cupped her hands, one inside the other, and rested them on her skirt. Lillian studied them, the neatly clipped nails and the fading calluses on the outside of her ring fingers. Lillian smiled to herself. Yes, it was true you could stop riding horses. But there would always be something left behind to remind you of what it was like.
Lillian smiled. “Not many people recognize the scent of the moonflowers when there are gardenias nearby. Gardenias are like the bullies of the garden, always muscling out the scents of the other flowers.”
Earlene leaned forward and touched the folded-up moonflower bloom. “But these are my favorite. I think I’d recognize their scent anywhere.”
“Your favorite? But they only bloom at night and during the day they look like wet tissue paper.” Lillian’s voice sounded sharper than she’d wanted it to. But she’d always considered the moonflower a sentimental bloom, favored by those who took a childish delight in surprises. Annabelle had been like that, and she’d learned the hard way that it was best to take things at face value. Moonflowers had been Annabelle’s favorite flower, too.
Earlene’s shoulders went back in a defensive gesture at odds with the placid demeanor she normally showed the world. “True. But I like to think of them as courageous flowers. I mean, how many people would keep a flower in their garden that looked like this if they didn’t know what happens to them at night? It’s like the flowers like the risk of being yanked out of a garden, holding on to the thrill that some lucky gardener will discover them at night.”
