Page 34 of Reckless
He leans down his lips pressing against mine, and I feel like all the air has been sucked from my body. My hand reaches up playing with the short hair at the back of his neck, my other planted on his hip and gripping it tightly. Maybe if I hold on, I won't lose him again.
“You have my word, right here, right now. I will spend every damn day making you happy.” He looks at me and seems to be fighting an internal struggle before he kneels in front of me.
No. Way.
He can’t be—
"Carly Ferguson, I have been in love with you for as long as I can remember. I'm not perfect, and I can't promise you that. I can promise you that I will care for you and spend every day of our lives making sure you're smiling. Things aren't always going to be easy, and I'm sure I'll screw up along the way. I will never let that affect us though, and I'll never stop loving you more tomorrow than I do today. I don't have a ring right now because I didn't plan this. Thing is, I believe in following your gut. My gut is telling me that there's no reason to wait on this because I know there's no way I plan to let you go. Say you'll be mine forever."
Oh, my God. Looking into his eyes, I see the boy I used to love like a brother, and the man I know in my heart I love today. "Yes."
It's all I can say before he leans up, crashing his lips to mine. "Fuckin' love you so much." He moves to pick me up, but I groan in pain. "Shit, sorry."
I smile at him. "I think I should just walk to the bedroom."
He grabs my arm to stop me from walking. "You sure? I don't want to hurt you, babe."
“I mean, I think if we move slowly it will be fine. Unless you don’t want to.” I smile at him.
“Hell no. Never gonna say no to that, babe.”
I laugh as he follows me to my room.
***
Waking up with Jax in my bed feels great. I barely slept because I was so uncomfortable all night but every time I woke up, I felt so much better being in his arms. Tony basically wanted a football field between us when we slept, with Jax if I got too far away, he’d just pull me closer or he’d move closer.
"Morning, beautiful," he whispers in my ears, and the smile that breaks out on my face is so big my cheeks hurt.
“Hey.” I tighten my arms around him almost afraid if I let go that he’ll disappear.
“I need to head to the clubhouse for church today, and you’re coming with me.” I look up at him completely confused. “One of two things are gonna happen today. Either you’ll be an old lady, or I’m gonna head to a different chapter.”
“Chapter? What does that mean?” Is he telling me he’s going to leave the club for me?
"Our club has been growing, and there are a couple different chapters that have formed. If the brothers here won't accept you, then I'm going to move to a new chapter where you didn't show up as a club girl, and I can claim you."
So if they say no today, he's going to leave town, and he wants me to go with him. I think about it for a minute, and even though I'm kind of annoyed that he didn't even ask me about leaving, the fact that he's willing to uproot everything he knows for me means a lot.
“Say something, babe. I know I’m just throwing this at you, but I told you last night I was all in. I meant it.”
I sit up and look at him. "I'm all in too, babe. Honestly, the only ties I have here are with Jess. I love that you are willing to do this for me."
"I'd do anything for you. I told you that last night. If I'm making you mine, then that's it." I ease myself back down to the bed and kiss him, loving being in his arms and realizing that I'll get to have this every day.
"I love you, Jaxon Peters."
I never said it to him last night even after I accepted his proposal. It feels so good to say it even though it’s scary at the same time.
"Loved you for years and at this point, I'm never gonna stop."
