Page 41 of Broken Hero
She looks down, disappointment in her stance.
I carry on, “In fact, I know it’s not a good idea - but the way I feel right now, I don't fucking care.”
Her head shoots up. “You didn't mind me kissing you?”
“You're kidding, right?”
She blushes - first time for everything - I've never seen her blush before. “I know I shouldn't have done it, it was uncool of me, but I couldn't help it.”
“Sophie, I want you. Ireallyfucking want you - but I'm not capable of more. I want to know what it would be like to fuck you. I want to taste you...everywhere. I want to taste every inch of you, slide my cock into you and feel every inch of you.”
She gasps, and her eyes fill with desire.
“But you should know. The scars - they're not only on the outside, Blue. They're all over the inside too. She was it for me - Violet. I won’t be with anyone again - in a relationship, I mean. I don't have it in me. To love someone like that - that I was meant to be with. No way I'm putting myself out there again for that to happen.
She nods. “I understand Dec. I've got to know you, and what you let people know isn't much. You are completely closed off - I'm not blind. But the truth is I want you too - so bad that it's all I can think about. And what you said you want to do to me, I want that too, so much.
“But do you get what I'm saying to you?” I need her to be clear on this.
“Yeah, you're saying that you'll fuck me but that there won't be any feeling involved - I get it.”
I flinch at her bluntness, but she got it right. “Could you agree to that - would you be okay with it?”
She shrugs. “It wouldn't be the first time. Women have sexual needs too Dec - it doesn't always have to be about feelings.”
I look down. “ Yeah, I get that – but we live together, I see you at work, you work with my brother - I don't want things to get complicated.”
“I think things already got complicated two hours ago when we kissed. If you can agree to keep the emotions out of it, so can I.”
I nod. “I just want you.”
Her eyes flare. She looks at her phone. “We have to go down now, we don't want to be late. Maybe when we've shown our face for a couple of hours, we can sneak back up here?”
“I think that's the best fucking idea I’ve heard in a long time.” I hold my elbow out to her. “Come on, m’lady, let's go.”
She slides her tiny hand through my arm and reaches up to kiss me on the cheek. I want to stop and kiss her properly, but I know that after what we've just agreed, that there's no way I could stop there.
I lead her down to the event, counting down the minutes that I get to bring her back up to the room.
