Page 71 of Unspoken Confessions
It really must suck to be a celebrity.
I suppose I never really thought about it. I guess I didn’t have a reason to care before. Sure, Reed had his share of the light, but it never seemed to get in the way. And he was the kind of person that was private but didn’t try to hide. If shit came out about him, like the fact that he had two partners, he gave a short, simple statement that was always full of honesty and truth. But I imagined someone like Nick was more in the spotlight. People watched his every move. They looked for him in places he was known to be. They stopped him when they saw him. And from the sounds of it, there was always more than just one.
As much as I hated to admit it, I suddenly saw things in a different light. I might have even said I understood, to some degree, why he was freaked out at every little thing. Even in his own home, he didn’t feel safe. And one little thing caught with a camera could be like a bomb detonating right in the middle of his life.
After we were in the air, and Jen and Austin seemed to have passed out, Nick leaned into me.
“I don’t know why I said that,” Nick whispered but he wouldn’t look at me. “I wasn’t… I didn’t mean to imply… things with you.”
“Yes, you do. You know why you said it,” I told him calmly. Did he think I was mad? “And if it was about me, though you seem to be trying to say it wasn’t, I’m okay with it.”
His head snapped up and he looked at me with shock in his eyes.
“I’m right here, Nick. All you have to do is reach out and grab me.”
I wasn’t sure how I could be more blatant than that.
In a blink, he was gripping my face and kissing me hard.
Then he broke away and stared at me for a long moment.
“I want you.” The words rushed out of his mouth, seeming to meld together as one.
“Bathroom,” I told him with a tilt of my head.
He jumped up, clearly eager to get me behind a closed door. I didn’t give a fuck as I stood and walked after him. Jen and Austin were asleep. I was pretty sure of it. Even if they weren’t, well, it wasn’t like they didn’t know already. As far as the pilots went, they had no reason to come out. Reed had probably made them sign one of his NDAs that he liked to make everyone sign. So, fuck it, we were as safe as we could get.
His lips were on mine the moment I had the door shut behind me. He palmed my hard cock over my pants and I thrust against his touch.
“What do you want, Nick?” I growled into his ear.
“You. Fuck. Please. I want you.” He was lost to the lust and desire. To the need. And seeing him like this with his lids closed and face angled back completely submerged in this moment, it made me want to give him everything.
I wanted him to see this. I needed him to understand how beautiful we were together. How sexy he was letting himself give in to his need for me. So, without a word, I spun him around and pressed him up against the sink. There was a small mirror there and now he was face-to-face with it.
“That, right there, Nicky, is real,” I told him as I worked his pants down. “That is you. That is me. And that is what we do to each other.”
It wasn’t just about the sex, though I wasn’t ready to give that up yet. Honestly, I wasn’t sure if I ever would. It was good. And I knew that it was good because it was meaningful. Nick wasn’t just a fuck that worked for the moment. He was more. I knew it. I was pretty sure he knew it. Now I just needed everything to align inside of him so he could set it free.
There in that small bathroom, both of us naked and exposed, I showed him how good we could be together. I fucked him slowly. I gave him my feelings even if he’d been worked up and wanting a quick release. I slid in and out of his tight ass with the intent of making him feel everything.
And I made him watch the entire time.
He could see it on my face. How this meant more to me. How I wanted him. How he had broken me down and made me crack inside. How he had begun to tear down my walls and make that charred thing in my chest start to beat again.
And Nick, well, he could see how much he wanted all of that in his face. He couldn’t hide from it. He couldn’t deny it. Not when it was right there in front of him.
We came together, clinging to each other and kissing like the outside world didn’t exist.
I didn’t know what tomorrow would bring. I had not one fucking clue how it would go once we stepped off this plane. But while I had him, I promised myself that I’d take advantage of every second of it.
