Page 58 of Unexpectedly Wanted
“I have nothing to add to this, as I don’t have a man that loves me that deeply,” Reese added. There was a hint of something that dulled the color of his eyes, and I took it to be sadness.
“Oh, no. Remy doesn’t love me,” I quickly said. “And I don’t love him.”
I didn’t. It was too soon for something like that, if I could even love. I often wondered if I could. Emotions weren’t something I had ever really had to deal with. I mean, I did feel things, but not in great waves. I knew what sadness was. Loneliness, too. I could be happy. And feel excitement. I just never really let it get to me or overtake a situation.
“Maybe not yet,” Kyle said. His eyes were studying me in a way that made me want to squirm. “But I’ve never seen you like this. Careful, you’re close to falling.”
I looked down, sure that my ass was still firmly in the seat and I was in no danger of landing on the floor.
“In love,” Kyle said with a chuckle. “I’ve never seen you like how you were in your office. You care about Remy. I had no idea it was even possible, but it brings me joy.”
“Is that what this is?” I asked. “Because I’m not really sure what to do with it. It’s all going to be over soon, and then we’ll be back to how it was. That was the plan. This wasn’t even supposed to… I’m not sure how I got here.”
“He’s good in the sack, isn’t he?” Reese said with a nice smirk.
“Yes, he is very good at bringing me pleasure. But that can’t be the basis of love. That can’t be the reason I’m worried. If he… if something happens to him while he’s… away, then it’s not just his lovely dick that I will be hurt over.”
“He’s even more clueless than you were,” Reese said, looking at Kyle. “This is so adorable.”
“I hardly see how my confusion and possible life crisis are adorable,” I said flatly.
“Don’t worry,” Theon said. “We’re going to get you through this.”
They smiled at me and made eye contact, as if I was one of them. Like I was a part of this little group here.
I could say that I liked that feeling. I’d kept myself separate from everyone at work because I didn’t think I could fit in. I didn’t think anyone would get me or like the way I was most of the time. But maybe there were people out there that would simply accept me as I am, and embrace it like I did. They listened to me. They even tried to help me, though I wasn’t sure there was help for this situation. They didn’t even seem to mind when I might have ‘overshared’ quite a few times.
Excited about what I’d just realized, I pulled out my phone.
There still wasn’t a response back from Remy, but I tried not to dwell on it. Instead, I typed out yet another text to send him.
I think I’m beginning to understand what true friendship is. I might not say thank you enough. But I’m saying it now. Thank you. For accepting me as I am. For making me understand what it’s like to care about someone. And for trying to break through the cocoon I keep myself in.
I hit send, and I was slightly smiling.
A thought came to mind, and I quickly typed that out and sent it as well. I was nothing but honest.
Also, thank you for sharing your dick with me. I like that part very much.
With a panic, I shut off my phone, sure that it would help me keep my mind off of waiting for a reply.
“You’re smiling. Are you texting Remy?” Theon asked, catching my attention. I jerked my head up to see the three of them staring at me like I was an exotic animal on display.
“Yes,” I said flatly. “He probably won’t text me back, but that’s okay now.” And it sort of was, I just really needed to know that he was okay.
And by the end of the night, I realized that they had distracted me long enough for the worry to ease a bit.
Friends weren’t such a bad thing.
By the time I pulled up into my driveway and had the courage to boot up my phone, I had several messages waiting for me.
I’ll be home soon.
Thank you for worrying about me. I know you didn’t exactly say that, but I could read between the lines. And if I’m reading it wrong, just let me go on thinking that. I like knowing I have someone worrying about me.
I like knowing it’s you.
Also, thank you for sharing your dick with me, too. I like that part just as much as being your weighted blanket.
