Page 192 of Ruptured
“Did I remember right?”
“You did,” Diesel said. “She has the most beautiful blue eyes of anyone I’ve ever seen other than her mother. Rebel is…she’s stunning. Spoiled as hell.”
“I’ll bet you’re as responsible for that as the rest of your family.”
“I am,” he said, ashamed of himself when Jana sounded so genuinely enthused.
“Is she shy?”
Diesel barked a laugh. “Call her many things, but never shy.”
“Will she like me? I can see us doing cool sister things.” When he didn’t answer, Jana wrapped her arms around his neck. “I want to make love to you.”
“Finally, she’ll give me some,” he teased, pulling her close and kissing her deeply. “I’ve only waited all evening.”
“We had a delicious dinner and great conversation. Now, we have the beauty of our surroundings as a backdrop.”
“I want us to go somewhere private,” Diesel said. “You don’t deserve a quick fuck in the back of a car.”
“We’ve fucked that way before. Tabitha and me have licked each other’s pussies in the back of your car.”
Regret welled inside of him, and he winced. “I’m sorry. That was unworthy of you. I should never have—”
Her slender fingers covered his lips. “Shhh, babe. It’s okay. As long as I was with you, I didn’t care.”
He pressed a kiss against her fingertips and moved her hand. “Do you care now? Or would it matter if you shared me?”
“Whatever makes you happy,” she said, not what he wanted to hear.
He wanted accountability, like Aunt Meggie demanded of Uncle Christopher. Diesel didn’t consider himself romantic, but deep down he wanted what his parents had. In quiet moments, when he was alone and his defenses were down, he didn’t care about a woman’s role or anything other than someone seeing past his flaws, his pain, and his anger.
He wanted a woman who saw the best in him,in spite of…not someone who tried to change himbecause of.
“Don’t get angry with me,” Jana broke in, “but I lied. I don’t want you to stop calling me or break our engagement. The truth is I’d prefer us to be monogamous. Marriage is different and—”
Diesel grabbed her and kissed her, overwhelmingly relieved. “Then that’s what you’ll get, sweetheart.”
“You’re so lovable, though. I’ll understand if there are girls you have to let down easily.”
His bubble burst. “Right.”
She grabbed his hand and tried to tug him away. “Come on. My pussy is soooo wet. You know how to kiss a girl.”
Instead of following her, Diesel dug his heels in.
“You don’t want me?” she pouted.
“Of course,” he said automatically, pulling his cell phone from his coat pocket. One swipe of his finger lit up the screen and broke through their pitch-black surroundings. “Do you know what I’ve always wanted us to do, sweetheart?”
“What?”
She sounded so excited that he couldn’t stop his smile.
He pressed play toThinking Out Loudby Ed Sheeran and pulled Jana into his arms.
“Dance with only the heavens looking down on us.”
“I love you so much,” she said, laying her head on his chest and allowing him to lead her to the beat of the music.
