Page 111 of Caged Between the Beta & Alpha
We were pondering on the curse once more. I swear I had done so much analysis into it that my head literally had memorised a lot of it. The book just delved into what we knew; there didn’t seem to be any more clues. I wanted to break our Alpha free from this curse, because he meant a lot not just to our pack, but to Damon…
Raven was sat opposite, looking through the book once more. She wore an oversize net top that showed off her dark purple crop top underneath with leggings. She was a nice girl, I wouldn’t deny that, but I was still mad at how unfairly Damon was getting treated. Even if she wasn’t doing it on purpose, it was obvious!
“From your notes, it feels like you think the answer lies in Liam. Like he has to figure it out,” she said, her eyes full of concern.
“That’s what I feel like it’s implying, and Amelia’s message to him with the card. I feel like she believed he could do this.”
“So, you’re saying that there’s nothing that we can do?” Raven asked, her eyes filled with hurt and worry. Damn, I felt bad about this entire curse thing, but I honestly thought that was somewhat what was being implied…
“I’m still looking and searching, I’m sure something will come up,” I said comfortingly.I won’t give up, I’ll keep trying.She nodded, staring down at the book in her hands.
“Robyn… I know it may be out of line, but did you love Damon?” She asked quietly. Her question made my heart thud, and I swallowed hard.Stay damn strong, Robyn.
“Yeah, I do love him,” I replied in a clipped tone. My voice came out colder than it was meant to, but can you blame me? It hurt, it really fucking hurt, and what sucked even more was that he was hurting too. Even if I had stepped back and sucked it up, hoping he’d feel no guilt and move on, I still saw him fucking hurting…
“You do…” she whispered, her voice holding sadness. I looked up at her, my eyes flashing green as I pressed my lips together for a second.
“You know, you need to stop hurting him,” I said bluntly. She looked up at me, her eyes widening. I swear I felt awful. She was a nice girl, but she needed to get her shit together.
“I know… I know I’m hurting him,” she whispered, clutching the book tightly.
“He’s a really nice guy who has fucked up, I get that. But he doesn’t deserve any less than the Alpha. They are both your mates, then treat them with equal respect and love. I just feel like Damon is being used, and he’s a damn idiot for allowing it!” I said irritably. She looked at me, and to my surprise, she simply nodded.
“I know. He said to make it work with Liam, but it wasn’t the right way, and I can’t balance it… I’m hurting Damon every single day… I know that.”
“Then reject him. Set Damon free so that he can at least be happy and find comfort elsewhere, comfort and love that you can’t seem to give him,” I said as gently as possible because I didn’t want to hurt her feelings, but I was hella mad.
“If it came to that… would you be there for him? Would you… you know…” she trailed off, but I knew what she meant, making my heart squeeze in pain. I shook my head.
“No… I may find my mate… I don’t want to hurt him the way I was hurt. I will just wait for my mate or stay single. I get dating, falling in love, and having fun is part of life… but I’m trying to hold myself together. It’s not easy when you love someone so fucking deeply that when they suddenly cast you aside, you feel like you’re nothing. I made myself a deal that I’d only fall for my mate from here on out because he won’t cast me aside… but it seems like even mates get rejected,” I finished off quietly.
I don’t know why I said it all. I should have stayed quiet. She looked really upset, and I felt like shit, too,but if she thought that Damon and I could just pick stuff up, then no. It wasn’t happening. It would probably make her feel better, but I was not going to think of anyone but me. I didn’t want another heartbreak. He tossed me aside the moment she returned. Yes, I ended it, and I would not stay with a mated wolf, but it did hurt.I’m human too. I have feelings, and I am going to guard this heart, now and forever.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it like that. I was just wondering… Damon said he had a connection to you… so I just thought maybe you love-”
“I do love him, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to go back to him,” I corrected her. She nodded, sighing heavily as she looked down at her legs.
“You’re amazing. You know what you want, how to do the hard thing even if it’s painful… and you still hold yourself together,” she said, frowning thoughtfully. I gave her a small smile.
“You’re amazing too, Raven. You’ve been put in a shitty situation, and you’re trying to do the right thing, even if it isn’t fair for everyone. But… you need to make your choice, your decision. If you want Damon too, then you need to give your Alpha the ultimatum that he deals with it, or he walks. And if that isn’t something you want to chance, then it’s clear you need to reject Damon.” Our eyes met and I saw the pain and sadness in them…
It wasn’t an easy decision… but it was one she needed to make. Soon.
My Everything
Raven
What Robyn said was so damn true, and I knew I needed to do this. I needed to talk to Damon. I couldn’t keep hurting him like this.I won’t wait any longer, I’m going to go, and I’m going to talk to him right now. I can’t carry on doing this…
I was back in my room, pacing restlessly. I decided to mind-link Damon and ask if I could come to see him. I took a deep breath, my fists clenched. My heart was racing against my ribcage painfully fast.
Damon?
Hey, everything okay?
Can’t I link you if there’s not a reason?I asked, feeling guilty, thinking I didn’t mind-link him as often. No wonder he thought that.
Course you can.But we both knew the truth.
