Page 81 of Caged Between the Beta & Alpha
All I could think about was Channing’s smile. Despite the fact that he was in a wheelchair, he still tried to remain positive. For a werewolf, a life like that… it was fucking awful…
I don’t know how much time passed, but it wasn’t that long before I saw Raven’s dark and light grey wolf come running, her two unique coloured eyes glowing as she dropped a bundle of clothes next to me and nuzzled my head.
I’m so sorry, Taylor, I told Zack to tell you, this is my fault,she whispered tearfully.
Don’t blame yourself. Guess it was better he told me sooner than later,I mumbled back. She nudged my wolf, settling down next to me and staring into my eyes.
I could see the guilt she was feeling, but I looked away, burying my head in my paws. I heard her shift back, grabbing the oversized hoodie and pulling it on. She sat next to me, pulling my head into her lap, and hugged me tightly.
She didn’t ask me anything, and I was grateful. I wondered what happened between her and Zack, what he had told her, but right then I didn’t want to think about him. All I could think of was the fact that my mate had messed around with my brother’s mate, and it was all my damn fault.
After a good while, when the moon was up and it was very quiet, the steady sound of the rushing river like a blissful song, she spoke.
“Do you want to talk about it?”
Her fresh floral scent was calming. I could probably stay there for a lot longer, but I did not want anyone like the Alpha coming for my head. Although that didn’t sound bad right now; Channing had risked his life forme, so I wouldn’t do myself harm.
No,I said quietly.Let’s go home.She stood up and shifted into a wolf before we both trudged back towards the pack grounds.
Zack is worried about you. He does care for you. He feels so guilty, he didn’t want to hurt you.
He hurt me the moment he agreed to that relationship,I said, my voice harsher than it was meant to be.
I know… I know how bad decisions can result in something worse,she said softly.
Don’t be sorry, Raven, I’m glad it’s come out.We were almost at the packhouse when I stopped.I have somewhere to go.
Where are you going?She asked.
I want to visit Channing.
Are you going to tell him?She asked worriedly.
I honestly don’t know…I replied. That crushing guilt was consuming me once more. She looked worried, but after giving me a gentle nuzzle, she headed towards the packhouse entrance.
Take care, Taylor. Don’t be so hard on yourself.
Thanks for tonight,I simply said before I turned away…
Helping Out
Raven
Ifelt awful. Zack had told me what had happened, and I felt like shit. I didn’t mean to make matters worse, but I had. I padded up the stairs in wolf form before entering the bathroom and grabbing a towel. Reaching beneath the cabinet, I slid my bedroom key out and trudged down the hall to my bedroom. Unlocking the door, I entered, feeling exhausted; however, I had asked Robyn for help tonight, and I needed to go visit her too.
I quickly told Zack that Taylor was okay. He seemed relieved and thanked me. I hoped they managed to sort their problem out.
I groaned, getting dressed quickly in underwear, sweatpants, and a ribbed vest top. I grabbed the book, shoved it into a bag, and headed to Robyn’s room.
I knocked on her door, hearing music from inside the room. Despite the soundproof walls, you could still faintly make out the sounds. She opened it pretty quickly, dressed in yoga pants and a crop top. She really was gorgeous. I couldn’t really blame Damon when he was stuck with a wallflower like me for a mate, one who hadn’t even been there for him. Once again, the difference between what I felt for them both niggled at me, and I pushed the thought away.
I knew I was beginning to self-hate again, as I did years ago, but I couldn’t help it. I felt guilty about my feelings, for being the cause of the rift between both of them.
“Hey, Raven.”
“Hi, I hope I’m not too late. I got caught up,” I said apologetically.
“Not at all, I was just finishing off some assignments. Take a seat.” She closed the door behind me. I placed the bag down and sat on the edge of her bed.
