Page 18 of The Baby
My nipples were hard and achy. I wondered how his mouth would feel on them. It would hurt a little, but in that way that felt so good. Except just thinking about that had me revved up so much that was I already thrusting my hips intheair.
“Please… Jake. I’m so closealready.”
He didn’t say anything. It was as if he could sense how on the edge I was. He dropped his face between my legs and literally that was all it took. One long stroke of his tongue over my clit and boom! Oh, and it felt so damn good. Like this all-over body orgasm that just went onandon.
Hellohormones.
But then Jake was still going and I was too sensitive. I tapped his shoulder and he lifted his head. “I’mgood.”
“But Ibarely…”
“I said I was close,” I offered with a shysmile.
“You want to try for another? You want to see if maybe we cantryand…”
I shookmyhead.
Then he plopped back on his side of the bed with a sigh. I knewthatsigh.
“I’m sorry, Jake. I know I’m messing this all up. I broke oursexlife.”
He turned toward me and pulled me into his arms, my back against his chest. “You did not break oursexlife.”
“I keep going over and over it and all I can think about is what if you jar something loose? What if it triggers cramping or bleeding? I even thought about anal, but I know you’re afraidofit…”
“You say that all the time. I’m notafraidofanal.”
I looked at him over my shoulder with a dubious expression. “Jake, we’ve been married for three years. I’ve brought it up twice and you’ve shot itdownhard.”
“Yes. Because once again you’ve only been with me, Ellie, so you might not realize this, but I have a pretty big dick. The idea of hurting you while I’m fucking you is not the biggest turn onforme.”
He was afraid of it.Trustme.
“Doesn’t matter anyway. I would be just as worried you would jar something loose fromthatend.”
“I’m pretty sure that’s biologically impossible, but listen.” He wrapped his arm around me and laid his large hand over the bump. I’m not going to lie, I kind of liked how that looked. “We’re going to be together for the rest of our lives. That’s a lot of sex. If we’re off a little for a couple of months… then we’ll dealwithit.”
I turned to look at him again. He really was the best man. “Are you still going to want to bone me when I’m old andwrinkly?”
“Yep,” he said as he pressed a kiss to the back of my head. “I don’t care if your boobs are around your knees. I’m going to stock up on as much Viagra as possible and go to town on you everynight.”
I giggled. Then I thought about where my boobs might actually be when I’m eighty, but that was something I couldn’t worry about today. For now we were two, for the most part sexually satisfied adults, and I wascontent.
It didn’t last long though. Because as much as I tried to move past it, as much as I workednotto think about it, the scary thoughts came back. The ones I didn’t tell Jakeabout.
The ones that made me do something super colossally stupid and almost cost meeverything.
6
Ellie
October
(The month I really screwedthingsup.)
Family is family.Cody’s words from the barn that day had taken hold and wouldn’t let me go. I tried to talk to Jake about his mother, but he simply wouldn’t listen. Wouldn’t let me explain why I thought it was so important that we at least know where she was. What she wasdoing.
Heck, if she was even stillalive.
