Page 30 of Noah's Reckoning
“Okay, you go.”
I wanted him to be the one to start. I could predict what he was going to say. That it was the circumstances. The tension that’s always there between us. I should have stopped him. That would piss me off.
Which was good because if I was pissed off by what he said, then I couldn’t be hurt. There had to be zero chance I would cry over this. Zero!
I crossed my arms over my chest and waited.
Only he didn’t say anything. Instead, he was looking at me like he couldn’t figure out what was going through my head.
“Liv, what do you think I’m going say?”
I huffed. “That you regret what happened. That it only happened because we’re stuck here. That our anger morphed and took over our hormones temporarily. All the standard stuff to let me know what we did was wrong and it can never happen again.”
“Wrong? Did that feel wrong to you?”
“That’s not fair. You can’t make me answer something honestly when you’re about to dump all over it.”
Because I didn’t really want to dump on the most amazing sex I’d ever had. It was like eating oatmeal every day for breakfast. It’s good. It’s fine. It’s steady. Then someone hands you bacon and you’re like, oh yeah, this is what I’ve been missing my whole life.
“Dump all… Olivia, what we did was fucking spectacular. You think I’m going to dump on the best sexual experience of my life? Fuck that. I don’t regret it. I sure as hell know there was nothing temporary about my hormones, and that last part, about it not happening again… Yeah, you’re going to have to rethink that.”
I blinked. “I am?”
He smiled. “Oh yeah, you are.”
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Dump on it?Regret it? I swear there were times I had no idea what was going on in her head. I pulled the rabbit out from being directly over the flames so it could cool before we dug in.
Meanwhile, we still had to have the conversation I’d been dreading since she woke up.
“Olivia, what we need to talk about is what I did. I fucked you bare. Came inside you twice.”
And fucking loved it. I didn’t mention that part. It seemed a little inconsiderate. Never having not worn a condom before, I wasn’t prepared for how crazy it would make me. How desperate I would be to finish inside her. Or maybe that was Olivia. All I knew was that when I saw my cum leaking out over my dick, I tapped into that hard-core caveman mentality.
Feed woman.
Fuck woman.
Make baby with woman.
“Oh. That.”
“Yeah that. You should know I’m clean.”
“I know,” she said. “Cal told me he makes you guys get tested regularly. Please don’t make me tell you how long it’s been since I had sex because it’s a little embarrassing, but I’m clean, too.”
“Birth control?” I asked tentatively as if by dragging it out, I might get an answer I wasn’t expecting.
She swallowed and shook her head.
“Fuck, I’m sorry, Olivia. I’m so sorry…I was out of my head and I know that’s not an excuse but…I’m sorry.”
“It’s not just on you, Noah. It’s on me, too. I knew I wasn’t. But you could expect a woman my age to be on it. Hell, if for no other reason than I do work as single woman among all men. I just…I don’t know. Because I wasn’t having sex, I didn’t really think about it. And my mother has all these concerns about the risk of cancer when being on the pill too long.”
I shook my head. “You’re letting me off the hook when you shouldn’t be.”
